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04/24/2004 Entry: "In memory of my uncle."

In memory of my uncle.

Things seem very surreal at the moment. My uncle passed away this morning. I am just back from the funeral parlour. Almost two months ago, the doctors said he had 6 months to live. Terminal Hepatoma. I can't stop crying. He was such a good person. He meant a lot to me. It's funny how regret is always present at times like this; I wish I got to see him before he passed on. At least he is not suffering any more.

Cemeteries are oddly comforting places when you are in mourning. Once, I attended the funeral of a friend and after that everyone left. I had to wait for 3 hours for mom to pick me up. My grandfather's grave happened to be close by. I spent those 3 hours watching the sky grow dark and talking to my grandfather while I cleaned up the area around his grave. I wasn't afraid. It was surreal then, too. I don't believe in ghosts and spirits but I felt his presence. From then on, I was never afraid of being alone in a cemetery, even in the dark.

Time.

Even such is time which takes in trust
Our youth, our joys, and all we have,
And pays us but with age and dust:
Who in the dark and silent grave
When we have wandered all our ways
Shuts up the story of our days.
And from which earth and grave and dust
The Lord shall raise me up I trust.

-- Written by Sir Walter Raleigh the night before he died, and left at the Gate House.

Replies: 8 comments

i'm only able to offer my condolences from across the seas. i hope that the funeral would be able to offer you some catharsis. take care stephanie!

Posted by killuminati @ 04/25/2004 11:52 AM GMT


My condolences Steph. Loss can be heavy to the heart only because the greatness that person holds in ones heart, that I believe. *hugs*

Posted by Kay Sze @ 04/25/2004 04:06 PM GMT


ah sir walter raleigh... one of britain's greatest colonial explorers and a very adept slave-trader too. im sure his trust in the lord is not misplaced.

Posted by xman @ 04/25/2004 04:21 PM GMT


my condolesnce dear stephie poo. *hugz*

Posted by CHris @ 04/25/2004 06:02 PM GMT


My sincerest condolences, I'm sorry for your loss. I recently lost someone too and I know it's not easy... only time will heal the sadness. Take care.

Posted by fel @ 04/25/2004 11:28 PM GMT


I'm so sorry to read about your loss. *hugs*

Posted by mimi @ 04/26/2004 06:35 PM GMT


I'm so sorry for your loss.

I do agree, the cemetery can be peaceful and oddly comforting.


Posted by mac @ 04/26/2004 11:54 PM GMT


sorry to hear that, steph. *hugs*

Posted by manday @ 04/27/2004 02:40 PM GMT















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