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08/26/2004 Entry: "In progress"

In progress

My parents presented me with my first Lego set when I was 2. It was of the big Duplex variety, the ones babies can't swallow. I remember that they were my most treasured posession as a child, right up until I was 7. Then I got actual Lego. The traditional kind, with a green flat piece to build on. I never got bored of playing with it. I even made tree ornaments out of Lego for Christmas. One day, it just stopped. I can't remember why, or when, but I have always been fickle about my 'mediums'. I saw Lego as an outlet for my need to constantly create.

I'm guessing it was when I got my first computer. I never got bored of that, either. It was an unchartered territory for me as a child, and one day curiousity got the better of me. I was using DOS back then. This was before Windows 3.1 even. I noticed a command.com file in every directory I had and decided it was a waste of space. I deleted it, after a few unsuccessful attempts and then nothing worked. Dad came to the rescue a week later, presenting me with a 5" floppy with a command.com file on it. I learnt to be more careful with the delete function.

My next choice of medium was the camera. And then the written word. Most of my childhood was spent in seclusion (by choice) alone with my toys, books and computer. I was pretty anti-social. Nothing has changed.

This weblog has served as one of my mediums for 4 years and counting. Some may say that it is long past its expiry date, for something that isn't all that great. I never intended for it to last this long, but it has. For many reasons, I am glad that it did. For many reasons also, I'm not too sure it should have. For one, it is against my true nature to be 'exposed' to so many people that I don't know. In stark reality, I am much more sarcastic and blase (not to mention silly and fucking irritating) and any indications of these characteristics here have only been misinterpreted as - drum roll - me thinking I'm too cool for school. I don't even have to say it.

In the next couple of weeks, I will be making a few changes. I've already started last month when I took down zone3. This is another chapter in my life and I have been putting off making important decisions about it. Work is important to me, and as much as it was a surprise to me at first, I really enjoy the challenge despite the backbreaking hours and lack of proper sleep time. I hardly even have time for myself these days, and let's face it, I have been posting a lot less regularly here. Something has to give, eventually. My art was first to go. I have not created anything out of personal interest in the last year.. sadly.

Perhaps it is time for me to revisit old mediums. There is a Lego fair near the place where I work. I hear Lego has come a long way since the last time I picked up a brick.. :)

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