[ Wednesday, April 24, 2024 ]

 
I'm making a trip
to search for me,
trying to be
myself again.

I'll be away,
but not for long;
I'll someday come home
to where I belong.

Faded
and jaded;
Still standing,
don't (won't) fall.

I just need
a little time to see
I just need
a little time to free
the child, the hope;
In time
I'll be okay, I'll cope.
Tiff. L [8:56 AM]

 
I'm sitting here with a spoon in my mouth, neglecting the mess that surrounds me. It's been a long time sice I ate Milo in powder form, lol. Reminds me of being 6 again :) Feel like a druggie, except for the fact that I'm eating chocolate malt, not popping pills or anything close.
Chocolatey ;D

Cookie's looking at me. I think he's trying to tell me that I should get my ass in gear, instead of hanging around surfing the 'net as minutes tick by. Hang on a sec, Cookie. I'll be done in a bit.

...

Currently listening to: Phil Collin's One More Night
Current emotion: la di da...
Random observation: Just a few more boxes to go...
Tiff. L [5:11 AM]

 
It's a sad, sad day when I start listening to Vengaboys' Brazil and groove to the beat, ahaha!

Too much coffee, too little time
My head's a-bouncing
Dear Lord, there goes my mind.

Thank you for wasting your twenty seconds to read that. You mean it took you longer than twenty seconds? What you been smokin' boy?!
Tiff. L [2:30 AM]

[ Tuesday, April 23, 2024 ]

 
I look and feel like crap today, but that's alright. Actually, I didn't realized how bad I looked till both DJ and Joel said the same thing at different times, lol. Am still packing, and Roger's gone for the summer. Have meetings with my profs tomorrow. Bleh.
I lost count the amount of people who barged into my room for numerous reasons. My patience is at its end, so I snapped at a few, yay me! About bloody time, too, what with all the crap I had to put up with in the last 8 months or so. I went to bed at close to 8am, and the people started coming in around 9 (I didn't lock my door). Poor Susan tried so hard to fend them off, but being the inconsiderate fools that they are, they ignored her and woke me up anyway. Yeah, Susan was in all day working on her French paper while I slept.

La la la...

Everyone's out clubbing tonight. Me? Meh. I just don't feel like hanging out with a bunch of drunks at the moment. sooks has left for Singapore for the idN Fresh Conference, last I checked. Uncle Ben, Pearly and Chris haven't been blogging in ages. Actually, come to think of it, Uncle Ben should be in Malaysia within the next few days or so.
Pauline came by, and it just hit me how the year's almost over. I never thought I'd survive it, heh.

Currently listening to: Creed's My Own Prison (acoustic)
Current emotion: .
Random observation: Lots of stuff to do at the last minute.
Tiff. L [11:50 PM]

 
Packing, procrastinating, packing some more. I've given up on school, and will be applying for "Incomplete Standing" for two credits. I just... don't care anymore. I just want to go home. *shrug*
Helped Jeff with checkout today (after I swore I never wanted to do another checkout again). I did it anyway.
The room's looking bare, and it'll be worst over the next few days when things get moved out and stuff. It's kinda sad to take all the pictures down... I can't get over the fact that I won't be back in residence next year. It's a good thing, don't get me wrong, but still. There were plenty of memories, some bad, many good.
Everyone's growing up. It's scary. Am already halfway though university, eek. 2 more years for my undergrad, before I head to BC (hopefully) and grad school. After that, my PHD. Maybe a Bachelor's in Education on the way. Who knows. So many things to do. So afraid.
Someone told me I wrote well. I'd like to believe that, but I don't. It means a lot all the same, coming from this friend :) Thank you *hug*
I've decided to bring Cookie home with me. Eric will be staying in Canada, as I'm bringing Bunny and the Forever Friends bear back to .ca after summer. I'll miss him for sure.

Currently listening to: Sister Hazel's Champagne High
Current emotion: .
Random observation: Feeling a tad sad, and I don't know why.
Tiff. L [12:39 AM]

[ Monday, April 22, 2024 ]

 
Alone with my thoughts; it's a feeling of perpetual blah. Have finally finished editing; it's onto essays, packing and signing people out now.
I have a new friend, thanks to Di. Cookie the Puppy *smiles broadly* Cookie's black and white, and he's oh-so-cute, just like his name. Now I can stop whining about cookies, heh. Thank you Di *hug* I love him :)

Here's Cookie looking all cute and stuff:

Will try to sleep before getting some work done.

Currently listening to: Take That's Nobody Else
Current emotion: meh
Random observation: It's supposed to snow tomorrow, eek!
Tiff. L [5:18 AM]

[ Sunday, April 21, 2024 ]

 
I'm sitting on DJ's chair, in Eren's room, with his notebook on my lap, and the lights off. It's quiet, as Susan, Di and Eren doze between sleep and conciousness. A giggle, as Eren pokes Di. A screech, as HE FREAKING TICKLES MY FOOT!
Right, the mood's off, lol. Maybe I'll try this again later.

I love these guys. So, so much. And I miss Sarah and Kayla... :/

Currently listening to: Our Lady Peace's 4am
Current emotion: at peace
Random observation: I feel blessed.
Tiff. L [10:05 PM]

 
I can't feel my legs, eek. I guess this is what happens when you sit outside for over an hour in the cold, just waiting for the sun to rise. The sky was a dusty blue with streaks of pink and yellow when I finally came in.
I was so tired on Friday from doing checkout (I covered for Tanay) and things only got worse as I had my own checkout list to contend with on Saturday. It started at 9.30 and ended at 7. Running back and forth between North and South is not fun, contrary to popular belief. Didn't get to eat all morning and afternoon because of the numerous students wanting to check out as soon as possible. Basically, I haven't had much sleep in the last 56 hours or so.
So what else is new?
Sarah's left for Waterford, and I'm feeling a tad sad. Kayla leaves in 4 hours and 15 minutes, so I have to stay up to say goodbye. Can't believe my second year is almost over. We were supposed to climb the roof as a final crazy escapade on rez, but Kayla fell asleep and refused to wake up. Wuss :P
I ended up walking around campus before settling near the library, overlooking the Otanabee River and waited for the sun to rise.
Will write more later.

Currently listening to: Blessid Union of Souls' Nora
Current emotion: .
Random observation: It's peaceful near the waters.
Tiff. L [6:15 AM]

[ Saturday, April 20, 2024 ]

 
Reminder to self: Tiff, you left your keys in Sarah's room. Okay? Okay.
Tiff. L [4:54 AM]

 
Never-ending knocks on the door. One after another, they knock: some softly, hesitantly. Some gently. Some as if they'd like to break the door down. I may be sleeping, or typing, or studying, but they come in anyway. Barge in. Some don't care for privacy. Some don't think I deserve my space. Some are welcomed with open arms and broad smiles. Many simply want something. Many don't care. The one time I ignore the door, and I automatically become a bitch in the eyes of many. I didn't realize asking for space was against the rules.
I doze off, and there's a knock on the door. God's fucking with me, isn't He?

It's a hellhole made bearable by friends.

Currently listening to: Cake's I Will Survive
Current emotion: tired
Random observation: I can't stop rambling. I need to air out. Could someone just listen?
Tiff. L [12:28 AM]

[ Friday, April 19, 2024 ]

 
I can't keep functioning like this. I can't keep putting everyone else before me. I can't deal with having all this shit thrown at me day after day and take it with a goddamn smile. I've tried to be nice. God I've tried.

I'm not gonna try anymore.

Nothing and no one's worth it.

Nothing.

No one.
Tiff. L [11:51 PM]

 
I'd like to drink tonight. I'm tired, I'm cranky, I'm fed up.

Inhale vodka and
imagine a taste symbolic
of my universe.

Liquid hell I authenticate,
that which randomly manipulates
my mind;
Concentrated destruction
in pounding temples.

Poison my soul
with cold (clear) trickles
of sanity and lies,
compromised truths
and shattered mind.

Make me forget
my (final) bet
of pain with the devil;
breathe the shards
of nightmares.

Taste the clarity
at the tip of tongue;
savour bitter anguish,
splintered imagery,
broken promises.

Potent influence in an ounce
maybe three
or six?
Perhaps nine, more?
I forget.

Drop shots:
Head back, swallow;
dream, think, forget
Reality blurred
what happens now?

Taste the vodka.
I dare you.
Tiff. L [4:58 PM]

 
Too stressed and busy to write. Just a few short notes on the day:
1. Mom's left for Shanghai.
2. Called daddy.
3. One more exam and a few more essays to go.
4. Editing for devMAG has been put on hold.

ARGHHH!! :(

Currently listening to: Stevie Wonder's Seasons of Love
Current emotion: stressed!
Random observation: where the hell did time go?!
Tiff. L [12:43 AM]

[ Thursday, April 18, 2024 ]

 
I'm done with science fiction *plops on bed with a huge sigh of relief*

Currently listening to: Radiohead's Pyramid Song
Current emotion: semi-relieved
Random observation: I need a cookie.
Tiff. L [9:33 PM]

Squirmen & Friends :P

[ Wednesday, April 17, 2024 ]

 
Nothing like an icy-cold shower to wake you up and wash away the bad vibes. Severe thunderstorm today, and a tornado warning was in effect. Fun.
Did checkout, got chocolate from Joel, snapped.
Up, down, up, down.
I can't wait for the school year to end. Slept, studied, feeling disgustingly grumpy. I really need to snap out of this bitchy mood. Found my toys, yay! Am feeling rather odd lately. Moving out, moving off. Took down my Absolut shrine today.

Currently listening to: Live's Heropsychodreamer
Current emotion: blah
Random observation: Too short a time, too much a bother, too soon a departure.
Tiff. L [9:28 PM]

 
Look what I found while rummaging through my archives!

( \_/ )
(='.'=)
(")_(")

:)

Currently listening to: Incubus's Wish You Were Here
Current emotion: sleepy
Random observation: Gotta be up by 9 to sign someone out.
Tiff. L [4:06 AM]

 
Damnit damnit damnit!!

*kicks the 'puter*

I wrote this long ass funny poem and now it's GONE *sobs*

Currently listening to: Staind's For You
Current emotion: frustrated, disappointed
Random observation: It was such a fun poem too... :(
Tiff. L [2:18 AM]

[ Tuesday, April 16, 2024 ]

 
Semi-productive day, but one which I'm not exactly happy with. Read for a bit in the afternoon before Daniel dragged me out for a walk. It's as if we skipped spring entirely and just jumped from winter to summer, ugh. Hot and muggy outside, the lawn and quad were cluttered with sun-worshippers studying and/or relaxing while enjoying a beautiful sunshiny day. We walked from LEC to OC, picked up some slushies, headed back to LEC, climbed the drumlin and made our way to the dam located about 2 kilometres away. From there we crossed the bridge and headed back to campus via the east bank of the river. It was a nice long walk, that.
Just finished editing the first batch of articles for deviantMAG's second issue. I really should stop opening my mouth and volunteering to do more shit than I am expected to. People can take a perfectly good and honest offer and turn it into a mean-spirited, selfish thing, so with that in mind, I'll keep my trap shut for now (or at least try to).
Have my tickets finalized; can't believe it's costing me CD300 to fly one way to Newark, NJ. It sucks, but it can't be helped, as I need to get home as soon as possible. Damn you airline companies for leeching us dry with the excuse of "additional security charges". Amazing how it's always the consumers in the end who have to suffer, hmph.
Yes, I'm in a bad mood. Don't really know why either :/ La la la. Celaka sial. *sigh*
Was yakking with Di for a while, and we found my little stepladder thing from Ikea, yay! Will probably get that after I come back to .ca in August. Hiaks. Gonna get a bunch of other stuff I saw online. I wish I earned Canadian *growls* Hmm.
Just killed a bunch of bugs. Yuck. Hate 'em :/ Stupid flitting, flying things.

Bah. This heat is making me bad-tempered.

Time to hit the books.

Currently listening to: Radiohead's Creep
Current emotion: restless
Random observation: Funny how when I leave my door open, every Tom, Dick and Harry stops by.
Tiff. L [11:48 PM]

[ Monday, April 15, 2024 ]

 
So sleepy *yawns*

Slept for 3 hours or so before heading to University Heights with Di, Kayla and Sarah to see our new place. It looks better and better each time we go back :) Just found out that not only do we have cable TV, we'll have access to cable internet too, hah! And we don't even have to pay for it, bonus! The landlady's helping us buy extra furniture (depending on what we want). The room I'm taking will be empty, because her daughter, who is currently living there, is taking all the furniture in the room with her when she moves out. I'll be getting a futon, a desk and a dresser. I asked specifically for lots of bookshelves; am not too worried about closet space, since I don't have that many clothes anyway. Oh, and the best part about my room? The windows are large enough that you can climb through it *grins* This means I'll be able to access my room without having to use the main entrance. As such, I'll be getting a mini stepladder so that I can get in and out from the window if I want to. Not only that, but they look out directly to the main entrance, so come fall and I'll be gunning everyone down with my Super Soaker :P Yay me! *cheeky grin*
Yah, it's gonna be fun fun fun!

We walked back to campus and stopped by Timmy's to pick up some ice cappucinos. Changed into shorts and tees before studying outside in the quad. We later moved into the Pit and hung out there for a few hours. Di played the piano, and I had a nap on the couch while Sarah and Kris studied physics. Will be heading to the Snack Bar with Sarah soon for food.
Oh yeah, almost forgot, it's officially a year since I've been with deviantART :) Talk about time flying by *shakes head* I've met so many nice people ever since I joined that community. I'm lucky that way, I guess.

Currently listening to: Paul Oakenfold's The Word
Current emotion: .
Random observation: I forgot to call MAS Airlines *smacks self!*
Tiff. L [8:18 PM]

 
Hot damn, I missed my blog's birthday, eek. (Yes, it's 8am and I'm still awake. Somebody shoot me already).
Wah, a year of blogging *shakes head* Unbelievable. Muchos gracias to sooks; without her, I'd still be using regular html, and probably wouldn't write half as frequently as I do now. Yup, a year and 2 days ago I started blogging. I can hardly believe it myself, heh. *hugs the blog* Thank you for putting up with my rants, for being such a wonderful supporter of procrastination, for being my sounding board. You'd better not freaking crash on me now :P

<3 and cookies.

Currently listening to: D12's Purple Hills
Current emotion :awed
Random observation: Second year of university's almost done.
Tiff. L [8:13 AM]

 
I just got off the 'phone with Merv. I haven't spoken to him in ages and ages. It was so good to hear him scold and lecture me in that big brother-fashion of his after so long. Oh yeah, and he tricked me into thinking I missed his birthday *makes a face* Basket! :P
Stupid bugger's leaving for Hong Kong in June *sobs* I'm gonna be more alone than I thought :( Meh, at least I'll get to see him a month or so before he leaves :/

*sobs a little more*

This summer is gonna suck.

Currently listening to: Metallica's Hero of the Day
Current emotion: disappointed
Random observation: Merv's close to tying the knot already, eek. And to think when I first got to know him, he was only 17!
Tiff. L [6:27 AM]

 
Reminder to self: Call Malaysia Airlines!!
Tiff. L [5:15 AM]

 
I slept today *grins* So proud of me for that *hugs self!*

So yeah, DJ gave us a ride downtown to buy stuff, and I cooked for the girls and Eren. Have started taking pictures off the walls already. Got bullied by Eren today; that stupid boy bit me!! I'll kick his ass tomorrow, hmph.
Ntohing much to say. Sharon called, yay! Can't wait to see her in May. sooks is going to NZ mid-June; I'm gonna miss her loads. What else? I need to do laundry *pokes self* And no, the bears are not bisexual! *glares* Umm, ahh.. oh yeah. Sarah, Kayla and I pinky-swore some stuff today. Our house is gonna be so coo'! ;D

Here's me getting harassed by Eren, while Kayla, instead of saving me, takes a picture instead.

I will have my revenge >:(

I think I'll go sleep now.

Currently listening to: Matchbox Twenty's Long Day
Current emotion: .
Random observation: Off to see the landlady later.
Tiff. L [5:13 AM]

[ Sunday, April 14, 2024 ]

 
Di, Joel and Kayla just left five minutes ago. They came bearing gifts; specifically, the rest of DJ's toys, haha! right now I have Eeyore, Rocket, a nameless monkey and a red dog. Di took Snowball back (in her attempt to heterosexualize him). I tell ya, it's done in vain; these bears are asexual and they know it.
So yeah, 4.34 and I'm still up. I'm gonna attempt to get some shut eye for once. Wish me luck.

[edit: 4.50am]
Was down at Sarah's for a bit. Returned the toys, because we were afraid DJ would be upset at the sight of them missing. Will post some pictures before going to bed.

Currently listening to: Rockapella's Pretty Woman
Current emotion: .
Random observation: Joel's bringing some Absolut minitures back from Europe for me, woohoo! Yes Joel, it's on my blog, so you'd better not forget!
Tiff. L [4:36 AM]

 
Notch another four hours of sleep for the resident insomniac :) Was woken up by Kris for dinner, and everyone studied for a while after that. Eren was hilarious; he'd smoked up with Simon earlier, so he was really, uhm... happy and giggly for the longest time. Daniel helped me fix my alarm clock, and everyone went downtown around 11. Kayla and I stayed in and watched SNL and Monty Python & The Search for the Holy Grail. Am feeling bouncy now :P

Currently listening to: Eve & Fatboy Slim's Cowboy
Current emotion: meh
Random observation: Sarah bought me cookies, and Kayla and I finished it.
Tiff. L [2:40 AM]

[ Saturday, April 13, 2024 ]

 
Lookit!

Currently listening to: Cypress Hill's Insane in the Brain
Current emotion: .
Random observation: Such an apt song... *silly grin*
Tiff. L [11:16 AM]

 
God, I still can't sleep.

Had breakfast with Sarah and studied before finally crashing for a few hours. Was woken up by Mat and Eren, who then told me to go back to bed. Too late, I was awake already. Dozed off in Di's room, and a few of us just hung out together before Sarah, Di and I walked to Tim's for late night coffee. Trent University is situated on Worm Street, thanks.

Who'd have thought a stranger I've yet to meet would be the one that inspired words and thought with words of his own? Never have you seemed shallow, and never have the words you've written not touch a chord in my soul. A steady flow, hum and beat of mind that moves in fluid motion over emotion; did you know, everything senseless seems to make sense in the end? Who'd have thought random words were worth so much, could do so much? Blessed am I to encounter such an individual.
You really are a talented being. :)

Currently listening to: Take That's The Day After Tomorrow
Current emotion: .
Random observation: Updated the links.
Tiff. L [4:27 AM]

[ Friday, April 12, 2024 ]

 
Sometimes, we need to let go.
And sometimes, we need to hold.
Perhaps, someday we'll know
And the knowledge will warm the cold
forgotten dream,
the slipping stream
of conscious thought,
as for self I sought.

Scott:
-a soft mellow tone-

Just a single sonic tone resonating thru my mind,
Nothing more.
And this beautiful picture is all i see;
Being above everything
And nothing
At the same time.

While floating lost and scared,
For once not chained to anything or anyone,
i realize that i feel content with being hollow, alone...
At least i am finally free...

-now just a silence-

Tiff:
And in those words
I try to find peace;
Silent screams for silent release
Can't let go,
I just don't know.

I'll be away now;
don't forget me now.

[edited at 4.31am, April 13th 2002]
Tiff. L [8:04 AM]

 
I think I've seen and spoken more to Eren in the last three days than I have all year. For the last week or so, everyone's been hanging out with one another.
Camp Ghetto 317 is so popular now that DJ willingly gave up Snowball so that I could create more crazy pictures, lol. It's nice to know that my moments of silliness are so appreciated :P Have received ideas from Di and Eren for the next few shots. I'm feeling the pressure to perform now, though, as there seems to be avid fans of Eric & Ghettoball. For the moment, he's spending the night in Di's room while I concoct more crazy-ass ideas.
I haven't slept properly for the longest time, and I'm tired. Slept for two hours this morning before helping Eren with his English essay. A bunch of us had lunch and I read a little before crashing for another two hours or so. Watched Shrek with Tim before drinking with Eren in Di's room. Eren wanted to get plastered, and I wanted to sleep, so we figured drinking would be a good idea. Had a shot of Ouzo, which was supposed to "knock me out". Obviously, that didn't happen :/ Finally finished my Absolut Kurant, yay. We walked to Tim Horton's after that, before chilling in my room till 5. Kayla and Eren went to bed, but I'm still up.

Haiyah, dielah dielah . Beh tahan the stress already :/

"There's a song that's inside of my soul
It's the one that I've tried to write
over and over again
I'm awake and in the infinite cold
But you sing to me over and over and
over again

So I lay my head back down
And I lift my hands
And pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me of the song of the stars
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again
When it feels like my dreams are so far
Sing to me of the plans that you have
for me over again"
- Switchfoot's Only Hope

Currently listening to: Switchfoot's Only Hope
Current emotion: .
Random observation: It's as if everything's so pointless now.
Tiff. L [5:33 AM]

[ Thursday, April 11, 2024 ]

 
Taken after lunch before working (and before Snowball went back to DJ). Snowball's gone now, but these pictures will always remind me of my crazy second year, lol. I have more plans to be carried out in the next few days. Stay tuned. And for the last time, Eric is not gay; he's asexual! *kicks DJ in the butt!*

I love those bears, hehe. Honestly, teddy bears are the greatest things on earth. They don't judge, they listen, they're always there. Perfect for hugging and cute enough to stare at all day. Find me a person with all those qualities, and I'll find you a teddy bear :P

Currently listening to: Roberta Flack's It Might Be You
Current emotion: .
Random observation: I wonder how Snowball would look suspended from the ceiling, or covered in duct tape...
Tiff. L [3:33 AM]

 
So we're sitting in Di's room listening to Eren tell us stories of his life in Turkey. We should be studying, but of course we're not. Yay for procrastination!

It's been a mad day. Lunch at LEC before trying to get some work done. Snowball went home today, and I miss him :/ Eric's gone too, 'cause I felt bad about stealing Snowball for so long, so I handed Eric over to DJ for a bit. I want Eric back! :(

Currently listening to: Di, Kayla and Eren yakking.
Current emotion: meh
Random observation: I'm currently known as the resident insomniac, woohoo!
Tiff. L [1:01 AM]

[ Wednesday, April 10, 2024 ]

 
Ouch. Ouch ouch ouch.

For the first time since school started, I turned my answering machine off last night. I actually forgot it was actually possible to do so. Hmm.
Guess the pills are wearing off. Ouch. Meh. Need more pills.
Am procrastinating by taking fun photos of Snowball and helping him write a letter 'home' to DJ.

I know how you feel, because I feel the same way, day after day, with every single conscious moment. I know. Here's hoping we'll make it through, eh?

Currently listening to: Debbie Gibson's Lost in Your Eyes
Current emotion: *shrug*
Random observation: I miss Bubu.
Tiff. L [3:36 PM]

 
I think I lost you today.
Or maybe I'd lost you a long time ago. Daily chatters dwindle into sparodic e-mails and odd notes every few weeks or so, which died when we (I?) stopped trying. I don't doubt we were friends, but I do doubt the foundation the friendship was built on. I always felt that I had to draw you out, and I guess I just got tired of doing that, even though friends shouldn't. Try to understand; I never was one for reaching out anyway. I'm a recluse who never goes out unless asked or told to do so, both physically and metaphorically speaking. I'm not good at making small talk. I'm not good at making new friends. Perhaps I'm not good at keeping the old? I don't know anymore. We see each other online, but we really don't do anything about it. My curser hovers around your name, but I don't click it. Perhaps it's pride? Or just plain human nature to let sleeping dogs lie?
I really have been screwing up a lot these months, haven't I?
I think I lost you today. :/

Currently listening to: Whitney Houston's One Moment in Time
Current emotion: meh.
Random observation: I really must be doing something wrong somewhere.
Tiff. L [9:54 AM]

[ Tuesday, April 09, 2024 ]

 
Was visiting DJ with Di and Susan when I kidnapped Snowball and introduced him to my boys. Eric took real good care of him. I'll get him to write to ya sometime Deej.

Currently listening to: Sister Hazel's We'll Find It
Current emotion: blur
Random observation: Snowball's now known as Ghettoball, thankie.
Tiff. L [1:08 PM]

 
Do you know how disturbing it is to find that all that you once thought was the truth, turns out to be nothing but a lie?

And the worst part is, I'm not even surprised anymore.

Currently listening to: Blessid Union of Souls' Last Day
Current emotion: .
Random observation: I feel even stupider today than I ever did.
Tiff. L [5:16 AM]

[ Sunday, April 07, 2024 ]

 
My MSN nick - Wake me up by 1pm; I need to cook!

12.38pm.
Asha (over 'phone): Tiffany I want to speak to Tiffany hallo baadie wake up wake up wake uppppppppppp it's time to cook it's time to cook it's time to cook! It's one pee emm it's one pee emm. Babaiiii!!

12.50pm.
Marianne: wake up wake up wake up!!

12.55pm.
Sarah: Are you up?

1.10pm.
Jan Ee: wake uppppppppp

4pm.
Mica: It's four

4.30pm.
Punky: you'd better be awake!!!

I woke up at 2.30, cooked till 6, cleaned everything till 9. I'm tired now. My thanks to the numerous human alarm-clocks, ineffective you may be *grins* I really need to either a) fix my pink clock or b) buy a new one.

Currently listening to: 112's Only One
Current emotion: .
Random observation: My neighbour just told me to turn my music down, la da di da.
Tiff. L [9:03 PM]

 
Just got back from Di's room. She just got back with Sarah from the Vibe, and Sarah was drunk, heh. We cooked and ate and yakked for a while.

La la la...

Currently listening to: Tufts Beelzebubs' Alive
Current emotion: .
Random observation: Insomnia is evil.
Tiff. L [6:01 AM]

 
4am and I'm munching on an apple. *cuts another slice* Yes, I'm eating an apple with a knife. You've got a problem with that? *bradishes knife in a threatening manner!*

I thought not.

*goes back to munching apple slices*

*makes a face* Sour, ee..

If I get sick, I'll know for sure the apple's gone bad :P

I miss doing collages. I used to do them all the time :/ Did I mention I picked up cross-stitching again? I suck at it though. Oh yeah, and Sarah's gonna teach me to weave dreamcatchers. I plan to make one for Colin and another for Audrey. Mm, and I'll be helping sooks make jewelry when I get back, not to mention those straw-roses for the house next term.
Maybe I'll take up art classes again. I can't draw for nuts, but it'll be fun to mess with paint, not to mention create some batik for fun. *pops another slice of apple into mouth with knife* I think I'll make a huge photo collage soon. I need to do something outside of school, by myself.

Meh.

Currently listening to: Cayuga Waiters' I'll Be
Current emotion: .
Random observation: Be damned if you do, be damned if you don't.
Tiff. L [4:18 AM]

 
I'm in the mood for accapella :)

Went to bed six-ish, and the girls woke me up at almost 2. We checked out the Toad Hunt, a yearly LEC tradition, before heading to OC to grab some food. Watched The Simpsons before heading downtown with Sarah to a local grade school to attend a Native Indian pow wow organized by the Trent University Native Association. I saw some pretty neat crafts, and the drumming was great. We also kid-watched; it was fun to see them running all over the place in their little suede costumes and moccasins. Sarah and I have plans to head to Toronto next term for the annual pow wow held at the Sky Dome; they usually have around 1,000 dancers, and the crafts are amazing.
We walked to ten blocks only to find we'd just missed the bus, and decided to stop by Haaselton's for coffee instead. We just yakked about stuff as usual before catching the 7.45. Got back to campus to find Di back, yay! She wanted to know if I smoked a peace pipe, lol. Weed oh weed, where forth art thou :P ("It's sweet grass, that's all!" "Rightt...t.")

Returned Hector to his owner, still alive (amazingly). Adios, fishy :P You made my room smell of your yucky grubs, *phhbt!*

Currently listening to: Flying Pickets' Only You
Current emotion: meh
Random observation: Don't forget to set your clocks and hour ahead; daylight saving's over.
Tiff. L [12:10 AM]

[ Saturday, April 06, 2024 ]

 
I don't seem to be sleeping much anymore, bleh.
Was in bed 2-ish and had originally planned to sleep in till noon. Unfortunately, I was woken up at 9.30am and had to attend a meeting at 10.30 *swears a little* Couldn't go back to bed after that, so it was off to Scullers' with Sarah and Asha for lunch. We stopped by the International Programme office to vote for the new execs. for TISA before heading back to rez.
Took the bus downtown with Kayla and Sarah around 2 and bought some chocolate before hanging out at Haaselton's. I had a peach-flavoured Italian cream soda, and the three of us split a slice of chocolate cake covered in nuts. It was yummy ;D We were lucky enough to snag the couches, and they were super-comfy. Waited for Di and Susan till a quarter to 4 before walking to Cottage Choice so that Kayla could buy some new tops. We got back around 5, and Sarah and I ran over to the Physics department to hand in her assignment.
Later, we dyed Di's hair a warm shade of maroon and re-coloured Sarah's blonde streaks that were left from the last dye job. With all the ammonia fumes we inhaled, we went a little crazy (as usual!). It was girlies' night in, and we spent hours just yakking about anything and everything. Di left at 10pm for Toronto; she's coming back tomorrow afternoon. Kris came over and I streaked her blonde hair a bright red while we hung out. We were in Di's room till 12-ish before I locked it up for the night.
Went by to see Roger and spoke to him for almost an hour. I'd heard a rumour and finally got confirmation from him; Green section had weekly porn parties last term, and word was that it was Roger who was their supplier. He told me it was true, and I laughed my ass off at the thought of Roger being a pimp for porn, ahahah!! I told him I was gonna blog about it, and he just laughed 'cause he thought it was funny. I happen to think it's bloody hilarious! It was great to cheer him up a bit too; Megan's away so he was feeling kinda yucky. He'll be going home tomorrow though, so that'll be good.
Asha came up and we just yakked about stuff before she went to bed. She reminded me that most, if not all things, are what we make of it. I only wish she'd remember the same ;)

I was feeling very angry earlier, but then I realized that really, some people are just a pain, with no particular reason. A part of me still wants to understand where I went wrong, but someone told me that hey, maybe it isn't me.
To you, I will say this: I don't know why the hell you do what you do, say and act the way you do, but I do know this; what you did just proved that it was a friendship that wasn't worth saving. You're not worth it, because real friends don't do things like that. At least I learnt now, better than never. It was nice knowing you. Now get the hell out of my face.

;D

Currently listening to: Chemical Brothers' Loops of Fury
Current emotion: .
Random observation: I want cookie.
Tiff. L [4:10 AM]

[ Friday, April 05, 2024 ]

 
Am brushing my teeth in front of the 'puter, hiaks. Brb.

'kay. What happened? Oh yeah. Fell asleep playing Diamond Mines around 7-ish in the morning. Was up by 11 and sorted my timetable for the last time before heading down to Traill College to get my courses approved by the English Department. Came back, dropped my forms at Julian Blackburn College and stopped by Heather's to catch up on news with her.
Was doing some reading when Jenn came by with her fish (?!). She wanted me to babysit Hector (a red Siamese fighting fish) because she was going away to New York for the weekend. Now, pets aren't allowed in residence, not even fish, so it's pretty weird and ironic that of all people to ask, she wants me to take care of it. *sigh* I was given specific instructions on how to care for it, right down to the time of his feeding and the amount of grubs (yes, I'm supposed to count them with a tweezer) he has a day. Oh, and did I mention that he requires bottled water, not tap, because Peterborough's water is not good enough? According to Kayla, this dummy of a fish had Evian water at one point! *shakes head* So yeah, I'm fish-sitting this weekend. Unfortunately, I forgot to tell Jenn about the numerous pet fishes I killed over the course of my lifetime...
Susan, Di, Sarah, Kayla and I spent some time listening to my large collection of college accapella before heading down to the dining hall for dinner. Watched Friends and Survivor with Kayla while Sarah and Susan headed to the drugstore in a spur-of-the-moment move to dye Sarah's hair a deep chocolate brown. After a rather nervous hour of Di getting to work on Sarah's locks, waiting it out and finally, washing all the gunk off, we were introduced to the brunnette that was Sarah. She looks fantastic! She screamed and cried a little when she first saw her reflection (it was a drastic change) but I think she's handling it rather well. Trust us Sarah, you look great :)
Called Alice and spoke to her for a while. Susan and Kayla were laughing at me because I was speaking rather rapidly in broken Cantonese and a smattering of English, pfft. Hung up and called Kai on the spur of the moment. It was his birthday yesterday, and I forgot! I felt like such a heel, but hey, I called a day later, so it's not that bad, hehe. Happy 21st Birthday Kai *hug* When are you coming down to Bumblef*ck, Canada to see me again huh? I promise to take you to Haazelton's, where they serve fantastically yummylicious cake ;D
Made some soup for Sarah, Di and myself while reading, yakking away and simply enjoying each others' company. Kayla and Susan left at 11, and Asha left soon after. I'm getting used to this 2 or 3 hours of sleep a night thing. Finally did my dishes (a pile of 'em) and kinda/sorta cleaned my room. I've been harassing Hector with a spoon. I can't help it. I'm just so fascinated by the way he wiggles his way out when cornered, before being poked again ;D I'm so afraid he's going to die in my care, lol.
Meh. I didn't ask for him *shrug*

I'll go sleep now I think.

Currently listening to: R Kelly's The World's Greatest
Current emotion: .
Random observation: Another long day tomorrow.
Tiff. L [1:03 AM]

[ Thursday, April 04, 2024 ]

 
I'm dreaming of a white Christmas...

This is what happens when you load your entire mp3 collection onto winAMP and put it on random.
I can't sleep, because I'm so afraid I won't wake up, eek. The scary thing is, I feel wide awake now. Is this what they call insomnia?

Hey Kayla, call me before you head for breakfast yah? Di and Asha are comin' too.

Think I'll go toss and turn in bed some more.

Currently listening to: Neri Per Caso's Le Ragazze
Current emotion: pfft.
Random observation: I don't know what the hell they're singing, but I'll be damned if they don't sound good. Thanks for the file sooks :)
Tiff. L [5:31 AM]

 
Feeling pissed off and woozy. It took me freaking three hours to sort my timetable for the next two years, and even then there's something wrong with it. Argh. Haven't slept for a while. Tired. 60 hours - 2 hour nap = 58 hours of conciousness. Excuse me while I keel over and die now. I have to be up by 9. Or was it 8? *shrug*

Currently listening to: Swollen Members' Fuel Injected
Current emotion: angsty/grumpy
Random observation: And we try and reach for a champagne high.
Tiff. L [3:48 AM]

 
Yummy food served at the Seniors' Dinner, and after the awards ceremony (student dons received thank you presents from the college) Sarah, Kayla, Di and I headed to my room to watch the videos Di and Susan made with Defenestration Duck. We took lots of pictures and goofed around a while before everyone went back to their rooms. Roger said he left me something in his room, so I went over to pick it up. He bought me cookies, wee!! My MSN nick was "I want cookie" and the silly bugger actually bought me some, lol. Thanks Ra Ra *hug* He also loaned me his funky sunglasses (the ones I stole in winter) and bought chips as well, which I shared with the girls.

Eric had loads of fun with the sunglasses :P

Worked in Sarah's room for a while, fixing my timetable for next year. Everything's a mess, blah.
Got back a little while ago, and guess who called? Uncle Azuan, wee! ;D I haven't heard from him in ages, so it was good to catch up a bit. Thanks for calling Uncle Azuan :)
Am very tired, but have more work to do. Be back later.

Currently listening to: Daniel Hayes' Insatiable
Current emotion: meh
Random observation: I love cookie! ;D
Tiff. L [12:45 AM]

[ Wednesday, April 03, 2024 ]

 
Spineshank sounds really good when you turn the speakers wayyyyy up.
Tiff. L [5:18 PM]

 
Haa, had breakfast with Kayla, Di and Sarah. I have a new name now: Little Malaysian Running, ahaha! Coupled with Little Alcoholic Malaysian Friend (or LAMF for short), I'm now officially a running alcoholic (:P). Hee.
Last day for science fiction. I feel a tad sad, 'cause Trevor was one of the most amusing/thought provoking profs who actually encouraged critical thought and personal development in his classes. As always, he had to share a little of his past, which never fails to amuse me.

Trevor: ...so I met this gorgeous goth chick...a week later we went out on our first date. A week after that, I moved in with her.
*collective oohs and aahs*
Trevor: my parents didn't take it that well. This was after someone told them I was a bisexual junkie dealer. When my mother confronted me with that, I told her "Aww c'mon mom. I'm not a junkie!" *crash of imaginary cymbals*

heh. For those who wonder why I get all these quotes down, I usually jot down something that amuses me and keep it so that I can laugh when I think back on it :) Either that, or I get someone to remind me (usually it's Kayla if she's around).
So yeah, go Trevor! ;D

Having a good giggle over Afroman's Because I Got High.

I was gonna go to class before I got high
I coulda cheated and I coulda passed but I got high
(La da da da da da da da da)
I am taking it next semester and I know why,
(why man?) yea heyy,
'cause I got high, 'cause I got high, 'cause I got high!

Hee. How many college students actually have that happen to them in life? lol. Funny song ;D

I need sleep. I laugh at the most inane things when I'm tired. If I'm easily amused usually, it's doubly so when I lack sleep.

Currently listening to: Amanda Marshall's Sunday Morning After
Current emotion: woozy
Random observation: Seniors' dinner in an hour. Guess I can't go to bed then.
Tiff. L [5:13 PM]

 
We be rockin' this mornin yo.

*bounce*bounce*bounce*

Sleep? What's that?

Currently listening to: Mary J. Blige's Family Affair
Current emotion: light-headed
Random observation: How can you listen to Family Affair and not want to bounce?
Tiff. L [7:24 AM]

 
Was just reading Chris's blog, and just realized it's Ch'ng Meng again. Second year in a row since I last paid my respects to my grandparents, aunts, godmother and uncle at their graves. It's an old Chinese tradition whereby family members visit the graves of loved ones and give it a good 'spring cleaning' while making offerings to ancestors and loved ones that have passed away. Meh. I pray an awful lot when I go home anyway, to make up for the lost eight months :) Culture is something I have no wish to lose, no matter how far away from home.
Uncle Ben's back from LA, with no pressies though, 'cause he was sick. Hope you feel better soon Uncle B. Pearly just celebrated her birthday a few days ago, with alcohol and everything, yay Pearly! ;D
Just downloaded WinMX, and I'm downloading songs like mad again. Am talking to Andreas on ICQ, and he just said I was "two fries short of a Happy Meal". Ahahaha!! *shakes head* What an expression, lol.

Time to hit the books again.

Currently listening to: N'Sync feat. Nelly's Girlfriend
Current emotion: .
Random observation: I need to fix my watch when I get home.
Tiff. L [3:42 AM]

[ Tuesday, April 02, 2024 ]

 
I hear people screaming in the quad.

I've had nothing but soup and toast all day, wee! Soup and toast for lunch, soup and toast for dinner. What happened to breakfast? Meh *shrug* Aramark food stinks :P Caught up on my sleep. Have to call Alice tomorrow. Need a new phone card to do that. *makes a note to self: buy phone card* Have to call dad and mom. Have to call Malaysian Airlines.

Ah, the people in the quad have stopped screaming.

*lights candle* Burn baby burn :P lalala...

Spent the evening at Lakefield College. Waaa, pure humiliation. Forgot half the dance, lol. Pfft. It's over. Got back 10-ish. Tired.

I have your shopping list with me sooks. Will try to get the stuff for ya.

Da da dum. *looks at blog* Pfft. *wiggles toes* Fuchsia pink socks ;D

Will write more later. Am not making much sense now.

Currently listening to: Fredro Star & Jill Scott's True Colours
Current emotion: meh
Random observation: Did I mention that I broke my favourite necklace again? :/
Tiff. L [11:23 PM]

[ Monday, April 01, 2024 ]

 
Sometimes I really wonder why I have such a short fuse. Just called mom; spoke to her for 30 minutes, and as the conversation progressed my frustration became more and more apparent.

*smacks self on head*

I'll go sleep now.

Currently listening to: Robbie Williams' Eternity
Current emotion: pfft!
Random observation: Stupid stupid... *piak!*
Tiff. L [9:01 PM]

 
29 hours since I last slept. Had lunch with Catherine at East Side Mario's this afternoon. I don't wanna know anything about the court case anymore. I just want to finish this term, see my parents, hang out with sooks and basically bum around for a bit. To hell with everything else.
Made some calls regarding the prices of 'plane tickets, and am making arrangements to go home soon. Kayla, Susan and I crashed the Green Section's year-end dinner (well, I had an official invitation, but I brought the two of them along with me ;D). Wrestled with Matt and threatened to beat the crap outta Eren :P Kris was there too, yay! Bummed around with Roger, Jeff, DJ and everyone else before coming back upstairs. Was bloody tired, so I think I went a little mad. Had a laughing fit at one point, while singing the Elmo song and calling Asha-lalala, Punkilla and Kayla-lala. My tummy ached from laughing so hard :P Look, I haven't slept in a bit. I'm tired. I don't make sense, okay?! *phbt*
Kayla did a headstand. Susan super! ;D Asha's wearing the skirt I gave her last term. I broke my alarm clock :/

lalala... lalala... *giggles*

Quotes of the Day:
Eek! It's porn in the afternoon!! - Tiff. L
I'm from Turkey. I'm a barbarian! - Eren
Ghetto white boy trying to act all coo' and shit yo! - Susan, in ref. to DJ

Currently listening to: Britney Spears' Not A Girl
Current emotion: .
Random observation: lalala... lalala... *pokes monitor* *giggles* *plops onto bed*
Tiff. L [8:23 PM]

 
It's snowing! *faints*
Tiff. L [8:34 AM]

 
You know there's too much vodka in the room when your bears think it's 'da bomb' too.

Just a little something to smile about.

Currently listening to: Swirl 360's Hey Now Now
Current emotion: .
Random observation: Look at them alcoholic bears :)
Tiff. L [6:58 AM]

 
Di just left 15 minutes ago.

For our last dinner of the year, Kayla, Chris and I headed to The Red Lobster Saturday night. After that it was off to Chapters to check out some books; I saw an amazing bartending book I'm thinking of picking up before I go home :P The rest of the evening was spent just yakking with Asha and trying to figure out summer plans. I called Shean Min in Gippsland, Australia at 3am to wish him a happy birthday. Shao Yi and Nick were there as well, so I got to speak to them for a bit. It was great catching up with them.
Fell asleep reading the history and biography of Oscar Wilde for my theatre class. Spent the day working on my paper, and had dinner with Roger and Asha. Met Kris, Kevin and Vanessa in OC, so we yakked for a while. Finished another book and slept for a bit after that. Was on the phone for over an hour, before Di called to say she was hungry. I cooked, and we ended up hanging out till almost 6am. Oh, and Di took some mad pictures too.

hehe. It spells my name (kinda). *hugs Di!* ;D

Guess I'll just stay up for the rest of the day now. Ah, almost forgot to mention: I updated the photo section.

Currently listening to: Silverchair's Miss You Love
Current emotion: .
Random observation: it's almost exams already.
Tiff. L [6:27 AM]