Friday, October 31, 2023
Personal life aside...
In local (home) news, Malaysia's Prime Minister of 22 years has finally stepped down, and his deputy moves up a notch.
Happy retirement, Tun Dr Mahathir.
Posted by Tiff @ 02:44 AM GMT [Link]
Friday, October 31, 2023
Nightmare in a dream
Staring at liquor bottles in front of me, thinking about yesterday and tomorrow.
Been talking to sooks for the longest time. Am looking forward to seeing her in a couple of weeks. She just revamped her site, so go check it out.
It's Halloween tomorrow, and Alex is throwing a big bash at his place. Di's dressing up as a school girl, and the rest of us are going as drunks. Or something. Heh.
Actually, only Sarah and Punky are going. Am gonna stay home and bum. Parties were never my scene, and I doubt it ever will be.
I've refused the easy way out and I'll refuse it again. I have stuff to do, and it'll get done in time, but for the moment, all I need is space to sort me out. The book isn't finished, the book isn't closed for good. I'm just keeping it bookmarked while I take a breather.
Bowling is good. Bowling is very, very good. Geeky, but good ;)
Lovely lady, constantly there. Thank you.
"We're all fucked up, which means we're all normal. It's like a double negative..." - Punky
I try, honestly I do. I gave up part of a dream months before, but right now I'm giving it up entirely. All that I've held important for so many years, so many nights. Giving it up, for a chance to heal, to be whole again.
So I'll keep writing, keep rambling. Keep my head above the waters, keep trying.
Giving up on a dream, but not giving up on me.
Currently listening to: Katrien's Holding Silence
Current emotion: .
Random observation: Subway ran out of my favourite macadamia and white choc chip cookies again..!Posted by Tiff @ 02:06 AM GMT [Link]
Wednesday, October 29, 2023
Fucking not okay
Y'know, until today, now, these last few minutes, I honestly thought that good things happened to good people in the end.
That's just a fucking lie.
It's only Tuesday and I want the week to end already.
Am going crazy, fucking insane. Can't comprehend, don't want to anymore.
"Are you okay?"
No. No, I'm not.Just when you thought it couldn't get any worse, it just did.
Where the hell are you when I need you, and why am I not surprised when you're not there?
Posted by Tiff @ 12:43 AM GMT [Link]
Monday, October 27, 2023
Random messages
Not your mother or your teacher, not your conscience nor your ego booster.
You'll learn to deal with it just as I did.
Ken, if you see this, no, I didn't take off or block you or anything *grins* Something's screwy methinks.
WT <3 FS *does a little dance* Picking each other up along the way.
Dark are the days that shadow the soul.
Growing upleh.
Shean, you owe me an e-mail, pronto!
It never ceases to amaze me how some people lack absolute empathy.
1st of November coming up. 4 days and counting.
My last thought before I fall asleep, my first thought when I wake up.
"Sometimes I have to brace myself"
say goodbye and walk away
(can't seem to let go).I have a bottle of wine and lots of vodka. think I'll go drink now.
Currently listening to: Robbie Williams' Angels
Current emotion: .
Random observation: logic schmogic.
Posted by Tiff @ 09:50 PM GMT [Link]
Monday, October 27, 2023
Had a bad day again...
...ever heard that song by Fuel? Describes the day perfectly :P
Lost my wallet :/ Had to cancel everything; credits cards, bank cards. After searching the house frantically and turning everything upside down, called the car rental company, and the fuckers had it, and didn't call!
Damnits.
The guy who picked up the 'phone thought he'd be funny and crack jokes about using my cash and cards, having it, not having it. He's lucky I'm not in Toronto, or I'd go over and kick his ass for such a lousy sense of humour :P
They're mailing it out, but am feeling shitty about it all the same.
Fuck. Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckkkkkkkkk.
So damn frustrated.
Currently lsitening to: Vertical Horizon's One of You
Current emotion: pissed
Random observation: Should never have gotten out of bed this morning...Posted by Tiff @ 04:29 PM GMT [Link]
Monday, October 27, 2023
Microsoft vs General Motors
For all who drive cars or use computers: this is too good to pass up. For all of us who feel only the deepest love and affection for the way computers have enhanced our lives: At a recent computer exposition (COMDEX) Bill Gates reportedly compared the computer industry with the auto industry and stated:
"If General Motors had kept up with the technology like the computer industry has, we would all be driving $25.00 cars that got 1,000 miles to the gallon!"
In response to Bill's comments, GM issued a press release stating:
"If General Motors had developed technology like Microsoft, we would all be driving cars with the following characteristics:
1. For no reason whatsoever, your car would crash twice a day.
2. Every time they repainted the lines in the road, you would have to buy a new car.
3. Occasionally your car would die on the freeway for no reason. You would have to pull over to the side of the road, close all of the windows, shut off the car, restart it, and reopen the windows before you could continue. For some reason, you would simply accept this.
4. Occasionally, executing a manoeuvre such as a left turn would cause your car to shut down and refuse to restart, in which case you would have to reinstall the engine.
5. Macintosh would make a car that was powered by the sun, was reliable, five times as fast and twice as easy to drive-but would run on only five percent of the roads.
6. The oil, water temperature, and alternator warning lights would all be replaced by a single "General Protection Fault" warning light.
7.The airbag system would ask "are you sure?" before deploying.
8. Occasionally, for no reason whatsoever, your car would lock you out and refuse to let you in until you simultaneously lifted the door handle, turned the key and grabbed hold of the radio antenna.
9. Every time GM introduced a new car, car buyers would have to learn to drive all over again, because none of the controls would operate in the same manner as the old car.
10. You'd have to press the "Start" button to turn the engine off.
AHAHAHHAHA.
Thanks for the email Shao ;D
Posted by Tiff @ 06:15 AM GMT [Link]
Monday, October 27, 2023
Technically 5, otherwise 6
...the time, that is.
*Bitch finally cracked under pressure today and almost died on me. Had to clean her up real quick; dumped out a bunch of files and mp3s that were dispensable and burned a couple of CDs to ease the pressure.
Have to restart her in a bit *pats Bitch*
* my 'puter ;)
Burning CDs take me an hour, each.
Among other news, mom and Audrey are still not home yet. They missed their connecting flight 'cause their plane was delayed, and ended up spending the night in Beijing. Am gonna try to stay up for another hour and call to check on 'em, but I might end up just crashing.
Oh good, sooks is gonna keep me up, yay! And lookit, Aggie is online too!
hehe.
ahahahahaha!
(god I need sleep....)
...just another half an hour more.e...
FSE>NL says:
when we're back
FSE>NL says:
we HAVE to have a night
WT <3 FS says:
yeah, you and me + booze
WT <3 FS says:
!!!
WT <3 FS says:
and we can talk smack all nightahahahha... *rubs eyes and yawns*
15 more minutes...
Damnits, better post this before I fall asleep on the keyboard. Took me almost an hour to write it as it is.
Currently listening to: Hybrid's If I Survive
Current emotion: sleepy
Random observation: liver's just a technicality too.Posted by Tiff @ 05:53 AM GMT [Link]
Sunday, October 26, 2023
Whispers through candlelight
Should've been in bed three hours ago, if not earlier.
Can't sleep, so I turned off all the lights and lit 15 tealights and two scented candles. If this house goes down in flames, at least it was by over a dozen candles, and not one ;P
Candlelight
gentle, warm,
inviting through the night
like a halo
or beacon
a scent for all seasons
and time
which it slowly burns
as we watch the clocks turn
and tick
-flicker-
move
and burn
for light
and the good fight
to end
-peace-
I yearn.Love the language, hate the frills. Prettifying, unsatisfying play of words to colour and dress (thus make a mess) of life through an artist's eyes (the paint dries) and shrivels naked truth, such as I forsooth.
Currently listening to: Des'ree's Kissing You
Current emotion: contemplative
Random observation: Licence to ramble.Posted by Tiff @ 02:11 AM GMT [Link]
Sunday, October 26, 2023
Singing to me
8 more hours.
Should be sleeping now.
Intertwined,
reverse and rewind
seconds, hours in time;
searching for a rainbow
with (yet without) sorrow,
just faith and soul
to keep the spirit moving
and heart still dreaming
for that end
(an imperfect end);
no studio sound
by perfection bound,
an acoustic touch
to the music of such
an amazing (flawed) life.Daylight saving starts today.
Posted by Tiff @ 01:10 AM GMT [Link]
Saturday, October 25, 2023
Madness
...with the template I mean.
Don't know what's screwing it up.
Just a bunch of cleaning today, and loads of The Simpsons. 4 hours' worth in fact.
It's going to be an early night tonight.
Fingers still hurt; accidently burnt myself while baking yesterday, bah.
Currently listening to: Drumline soundtrack's Marching Band Medley
Current emotion: restless
Random observation: Am thinking of rearranging my room again.Posted by Tiff @ 09:02 PM GMT [Link]
Saturday, October 25, 2023
One of those
Audrey and mom made it to the airport, with luggage and everything.
Dinner last night was pretty good, with Althea, Steve and Alex for guests. Asha came by, and we chilled for a little while. Mom cooked, and I baked cookies later. Althea spent a good part of the evening ragging Steve, as always!
Am functioning on an hour and a half's sleep, and am currently chilling to some music and a new citrus scented candle. House is empty and quiet, and the sun has risen awhile ago.
Called dad, and it never ceases to amaze me how much he understands. And cares. Lucky me to have a father like him.
"I told her that she's there for a holiday, not for a chance to brainwash you. 'you want to brainwash your daughter? It's more likely she'll brainwash you instead! She's not stupid!'".
One of my 'biatches' sent me an email today, heh. Props to Norman for leaving this big smile and tearstains on my face *hug!* I'll see you in December fella, and drink we shall, to celebrate your graduation!
Have a couple of rolls of film to develop.
I think I'll spend the day in bed.
Currently listening to: A&T; Drumline's D&K; Cadence on repeat
Current emotion: .
Random observation: Looking for drumbeats.Posted by Tiff @ 09:34 AM GMT [Link]
Saturday, October 25, 2023
Fear
So damn fucking worried.They took off a little over half an hour ago, and it's shitty weather.
Bloody freezing rain.
I'll never fogive myself if something happens.
Guess I'll just sit here till 7 and call the airport.
Edited @ 6.25am
They made it safe and sound.Phew.
Edited @ 7.08am
Mishaps and mayhem *bangs head on desk*Hope they make it okay.
Posted by Tiff @ 04:56 AM GMT [Link]
Friday, October 24, 2023
Shopaholics 'R' Us
Looking at bills and receipts, I don't know whether to laugh or be horrified, so I think I'll laugh :P
The girls thought it was hilarious that I've shopped more in the last two weeks than I ever had in the last three years, and ditto with being out.
Have never spent so much money in my life!
Am munching on chocolate-covered almonds while mom and Audrey pack for their return home in the early AM tomorrow. It's a good thing Audrey came with nothing, because she's going back with a whole lotta things! Am wondering if she needs an extra box or two to pack all the junk she's bought, hiaks.
We took off early this morning for breakfast at Wimpy's before heading to Portage Place and No Frills for some last minute shopping. Bought a bunch of chocolates for the rugrats back home, and mom picked up some stuff for her friends. Just got in a little while ago, and we'll be heading up to campus so that mom can take a look around. After that will be a quiet dinner at home before they call it a night; they have to leave the house at 4am to catch their flight.
My conscience is talking its head off trying to make me feel bad about all that I should've and could've done to make their stay a more enjoyable one, but for once I'm ignoring it the best that I can, because I have nothing to be sorry for.
I have to live up to the name "spoiled brat" sometime.
Currently listening to: Chantal Kreviasuk's In This Life
Current emotion: settled
Random observation: Need a new mouse.Posted by Tiff @ 03:11 PM GMT [Link]
Wednesday, October 22, 2023
Hot damn!
Well I'll be damned, I actually fixed the bloody thing!
*does a little dance*
I've got 10 minutes to kill before I run across the street to pick up the pizza; we're too lazy to cook today.
Was at Lansdowne Place again to exchange the tee mom bought; she forgot to check the size yesterday *shakes head* Good news is, Audrey managed to check out the Motorola walkie talkies and price 'em; we'll probably pick up a pair when we hit Scarborough tomorrow.
It sounds awful, but 3 more days and I'll be free, hiaks.
I love my family to death, but I need my alone time too.
Di, Punky and I stopped by DJ's to see how he was doing (and to borrow some stuff). He ended up telling us this really messed story about being mugged, ahahaha! He's a crazy boy, that one.
Anyway, I never mentioned this, but about two nights ago, everyone was just bumming in their rooms when we felt the ground (and the house) shake. PCs flickered on and off, but we blamed it all on the thunderstorm. I just found out today there was a mild earthquake at Lindsay (about 45 minutes away) and it was actually tremors from that.
Wee!!
Off to collect my pizzas.
Currently listening to: Coldplay's Shiver
Currently emotion: hungry
Random observation: foooood!Posted by Tiff @ 07:38 PM GMT [Link]
Wednesday, October 22, 2023
Stupid template
Mom and Audrey went out for a walk, so I decided to mess with my template, or at least try to fix it at any rate. It's been over two hours, and it's still not fixed, so DAMN YOU YOU STUPID SITE!
*growls*
I give up :(
sookie, get your ass back home and save this damn thing! Please?
Ah well, never said I was good with html anyway.
Driving Di to school to get her stitches out.
Currently listening to: Jason Mraz's The Remedy (I Won't Worry)
Current emotion: frustrated
Random observation: Wearing a sweatshirt with sleeves that are actually the right length, woohoo!Posted by Tiff @ 02:29 PM GMT [Link]
Tuesday, October 21, 2023
Missing details
I really will kill Alex soon. For the second (third?) time in the last week or so, that little shit threw water on me while I was sleeping. Yeah Di, I love you and all, but I will kill him *evil look*
I owe Shean Min an e-mail. Here's your public apology, bitch ;D *hug* Will get to it tonight, I *promise*!
So yeah, Niagara Falls. We had a really nice room where if you stand on the balcony, you can see everything: a huge Hulk poster, the walkway and both the Falls, just to name a few. We took pictures, walked around, bought souvenirs; you know, the usual tourist-y stuff. Had a great dinner with crap service at Planet Hollywood, and checked out the Hershey's store. Mm, chocolate...
I went for a swim in the the hotel pool which was *freezing* but I didn't care, meh. A pool is a pool is a pool. If I die of hypothermia, it was meant to be. Or something. Anyway, seems that the heater wasn't working, and everyone in the hotel but me knew it (some guy told me about it while I was in the lift after my swim).
Am suffering from a cold even as we speak, meh.
I like driving in Canada. It's fun. Actually, I just like driving.
We hit the malls the following day after checking out of the hotel, but not before making a pit stop at Casino Niagara (just to look damnit!). Audrey spent 5 bucks trying the slot machines, ahaha! I think most of our time was spent in the outlet malls. It was a good 4 hours or so just walking around, buying stuff. I have a new skirt (you! shaddup and stop smiling!), a new sweatshirt, a little bag and... that's it.
We got home in good time, but in lousy spirits. Not gonna get into that.
It's a new day, and things are alright. Got some stuff sorted at the bank and at school. Drove Sarah to pick up her DVD stuff (it's shitty weather outside), and we went shopping at Landsdowne Place the rest of the day. I bought myself a pair of tearaways, and they were cheap, 'cause they were for kids, yay!
Have to go help mom cook now.
Currently listening to: Vertical Horizon's Children's Lullaby
Current emotion: chill
Random observation: I've got two hours to write that email.Posted by Tiff @ 06:40 PM GMT [Link]
Tuesday, October 21, 2023
Niagara Falls
I don't feel like writing much, but suffice to say, it was beautiful. The Falls, that is. There were outlet stores close by, which was a bonus ;D
This farce of a life had better draw a conclusion soon.
Don't you just hate it when people run though all your personal stuff? :/
Among other news, my school made its way into the National Post today.
Maybe I'll feel like writing tomorrow.
Hey Kayla, thanks for the Absolut ads :) And Rudy koa koa, I need to pick your brains over some css issues :P
Currently listening to: Linkin Park's Numb
Current emotion: meh
Random observation: Can't for the life of me remember who else collects shot glasses.Posted by Tiff @ 02:20 AM GMT [Link]
Sunday, October 19, 2023
Still awake
Can't sleep.
Frustrated, disappointed, confused.
I hope to God I'm just PMS-ing :P
So much to think about, worry about. Too much to do, too drained to care.
Damn it all.
I just want to be alone.
Posted by Tiff @ 03:03 AM GMT [Link]
Sunday, October 19, 2023
Busy
Still have yet to get a night of undisturbed sleep, and it'll be another week before I see that actually happening.
The Kokimo Factory was excellent, and between Api, Sarah and I, we spent almost $200 on candles and candles alone *smacks forehead* Got lost along the way, but thanks to Mapquest we got there and back in the end.
Today was spent sorting hotel bookings and credit card stuff before hitting the local malls for inspiration and shopping. Dinner at Marley's after picking up the girls was excellent, as expected. Played chess with Sarah before everyone (sans mom and sis) sat down and watched Chocolat. I thought it was pretty good *nods*
Anyway, that pretty much summed up the last two days or so; packing and leaving for Niagara Falls bright and early tomorrow.
Be good everyone (...and this means you, uncs! :P)
Currently listening to: nothing
Current emotion: disappointed
Random observation: there was an interesting walk that I forgot to mention....Posted by Tiff @ 01:50 AM GMT [Link]
Friday, October 17, 2023
Timmy Hoe's and stuff
Just got back from Timmy Hoe's with the girls. Drove on the wrong side of the street, failed to park on a proper spot even though the lot was empty (don't ask) and slowed the car down at a green light... *sigh*
I plead tiredness :P
Mom, Audrey and I drove to Whitby to check out the Cullen Gardens and Miniature Village before going onto Ajax for some shopping and lunch/dinner at Applebee's. We bought some miniature angels for our Christmas tree, with cheesy sayings like "Mommy's Little Angel" (Colin), "Best Loved Dad/Mom" (the parents), "My Sister My Friend" (Audrey) and "Tiffany" (for me, HAH!).
I suck, I know :P
We're probably heading to the Kokimo Candle Factory tomorrow, so yeah. Yay. The girls will probably join us, seeing as they're candle freaks, hiaks.
Need sleep. Too tired.
Currently listening to: Vertical Horizon's Goodbye Again
Current emotion: sleepy
Random observation: uncle, if you make fun of my driving (and I *know* you will!) I'll run you over when I get back :PPosted by Tiff @ 01:09 AM GMT [Link]
Wednesday, October 15, 2023
Personal opinion
Trust only in the cookie.
That's right, you heard me. Trust only in the damn cookie.
Whether it's underbaked, overdone or just right, just trust the cookie.
It may give you a stomach ache or salmonella, but trust it.
Because a cookie never lies.
Especially one with macadamias and walnuts and chocolate chips, ooh...
Trust the cookie damnits.
Currently listening to: Vertical Horizon's Echo
Current emotion: obscure
Random observation: Let down and not surprised. I hate that!Posted by Tiff @ 11:27 PM GMT [Link]
Wednesday, October 15, 2023
And we're back...
The grumpy me, that is.
Absolutely miserable.
;D
Better to laugh than to cry, that's what I always say.
*waves to unc and sooks and s and ruth*
I need sleep, but it's only at night that I get peace with my thoughts.
They're driving me crazy :/
Have yet to get a decent night's sleep, and I don't know if I will for the next two weeks. Don't get me wrong, it's great to see them and all, but having to figure entertainment for two complete opposites is a challenge in itself. Mom's traditional Chinese, Audrey loves anything American. Mom needs to be kept busy, Audrey doesn't care. And that's just the beginning.
Among other things, I've been told to rearrange and redecorate my room, cover a mirror, learn how to cook (!!), keep my room and the house clean, stop being so bloody grumpy and have a sense of humour. RAH!
It's not all bad; am just ranting.
Everyone's back, and we had an excellent dinner today, courtesy of mom.
Thanksgiving weekend was wonderful, thanks to Di's family, but it was also very tiring for mom and Audrey who were suffering from severe jetlag. Also, I don't know what's up, but they've been bugging me about everything from my sleep pattern to general behaviour which kills me.
ugh.
So damn tired.
...and she just woke up to tell me to go sleep.
*sigh*
...maybe I should do like Lilo and scream into a pillow or something.
;D
Currently listening to: Vertical Horizon's Best I Ever Had
Current emotion: .
Random observation: Isn't it wrong to be this frustrated?Posted by Tiff @ 12:33 AM GMT [Link]
Saturday, October 11, 2024
Giving thanks
It's been...quite awhile since I felt like myself. Too long since I took a break mentally, too long since I looked at anything with a little bit of hope. Cynicism colours my world, distrust follows doggedly, and a bitter sense of loathing whispers ever so often in my mind.
If crying cleanses the soul, then I have a whole lot of it to do before I can see the sunlight again.
But I'm getting there.
I am thankful for family, because as much as I may bitch, rant and rave about things said and done, I truly love these people beyond words, and I'm so amazingly proud of them, and there are days when I actually believe that they love me too.
I am thankful for friends, especially the few who make me laugh so hard I can hardly breathe, and weather my moods and my self, standing by me through the best and worst of moments and days. Who believe, who trust, who care.
I am thankful for roommates who are my sisters in spirit, who wake me up to go for class, who laugh at my little idiosyncrasies, and who swear that I cook well even when I don't. The ones who hold me when I cry, who stay up all night just to talk. Who scream "NAKEDDDD!!!" even when we're not, who appreciate the effort and skill that it takes to cook the 'perfect' bowl of instant noodles, and who give me a good kick in the pants when I need it every once a while, not to mention our future trip to hell with all the shit we do and say ;P
I am thankful for having a roof over my head, for having food to eat, for having any and all the materialistic things I may think I need but only want, for having a puppy at home who loves me, for being literate, for abstract moments.
I am thankful for my overworked computer called "Bitch" who keeps me in touch with friends all over the world, for choosing to laugh instead of cry whenever possible, for the opportunity to open my eyes to life and all its truths, whether ugly or otherwise.
I am thankful for life, because I'm sitting here, typing all this nonsense instead of sleeping or packing for tomorrow, and I can think and ponder and question. I am thankful for all the bad, because it helps me appreciate the good.
I am thankful.
So tell me, what are you thankful for?
Posted by Tiff @ 03:24 AM GMT [Link]
Saturday, October 11, 2024
Almost there...
Sarah and Api left yesterday, and Di and Punky left not too long ago. It's Thanksgiving weekend, and after I finish getting some stuff sorted, it's off to Toronto to meet the Hong family and to pick up my mom and sister from the airport ;D
The shock's worn off, and I'm getting pretty damn excited about seeing family. Did some major cleaning today (before the 'inspectors' arrive!).
Sharon called, and we yakked for quite a bit. Will be seeing her at Christmas, if not sooner.
Called dad.
It's quite amazing to see the world through such a different pair of eyes; it's been awhile.
Di's picking me up tomorrow, and we're heading to IKEA I think. Shopping, rah!
This Thanksgiving, I truly do have a lot to be grateful for.
<3 <3 <3 !!!Currently listening to: Eve 6's Rendezvous (Beautiful Oblivion)
Current emotion: loved
Random observation: T- minus 20 hours.Posted by Tiff @ 12:50 AM GMT [Link]
Friday, October 10, 2024
Decisions
It's a little past 6am, and I'm still up.
Mom and Audrey will be leaving in about 5 hours, and in the last 8 or so I've made a couple of major decisions.
I don't know if it's the right or wrong thing to do, but I really am beyond caring right now, so I'll just cross my fingers, jump into it and hopefully escape unscathed on the other side a better person.
It's taken me almost two years, but if it works out, hey, Life just gave me another lesson to carry, close to heart.
Almost rock bottom. After this, nowhere else to go but up *crosses fingers*
Currently listening to: Chesney Hawkes' The One & Only
Current emotion: exhausted
Random observation: never beyond re-damn-sin!Posted by Tiff @ 06:19 AM GMT [Link]
Thursday, October 9, 2024
News
Here's the latest: my mom and sister will be on the next flight to Toronto, Canada.
That's right, they called me at 2am last night to tell me their decision and confirmed their flight not 20 minutes ago, which just goes to show, there's a couple of screws loose in this particular family.
So hey, wanna send me a care package? ;D
You have till Friday 9pm Malaysian time :P
I think I'll go throw up now.
Currently listening to: Mayfield Four's Eden
Current emotion: stunned
Random observation: need to get rid of this headache.Posted by Tiff @ 10:46 PM GMT [Link]
Thursday, October 9, 2024
...
I wasn't kidding when I said I was going to burn in hell.
...
fucking hell. What kind of daughter am I?!
Posted by Tiff @ 03:49 AM GMT [Link]
Thursday, October 9, 2024
A breath away
We watched Bobby Hoe in action today, woo!
I think I did pretty damn well in my presentation on The Lais of Marie de France, double woo!
Pizza, warm weather and ice cream. woowoowoo.
Aside from that, everything fucking sucks.
Speaking in tongues,
Releasing minds,
breaking cages
as the soul rages
on about heaven and hell,
Just tear the blinds
and madness quell.
Looking for peace,
day by day
A breath away.Later.
Currently listening to: Linkin Park's Faint
Current emotion: tired
Random observation: Negativity permeates every pore.
Posted by Tiff @ 12:22 AM GMT [Link]
Tuesday, October 7, 2024
Screwed
Here's to the crazy ones
the misfits, the rebels
the trouble-makers
The ones who
see things differently
You can quote them
disagree with them
glorify or vilify them
But the only thing you can't do is
ignore them
Because the people who are
crazy enough to think
they can change the world
are the ones who do.
- Unknown (found on Head of the Trent beer mug)Hey uncle, how do you feel about having your niece come bum with you for a couple of months? :P
Currently listening to: Coldplay's Shiver (acoustic)
Current emotion: drained
Random observation: Maybe; just... maybe.Posted by Tiff @ 11:14 AM GMT [Link]
Monday, October 6, 2024
Focus
Shakespeare's a pain in the ass, especially reading something as long and wordy as Henry IV when you're functioning on two hours of sleep. Even so, I will persevere, if only to prove to myself that all-nighter or no, I can do it.
The life of a university student.
It's hard to wake up and be overwhelmed immediately with life's trials, so much so that you want to call it quits, but I find solace in the fact that I can still get out of bed and keep fighting it anyway.
Was at Yimin's for a while yesterday, and she taught me how to play ping pong while acquainting me with the finer points of Jay Chou *grins* We had a learning conversation, and I left a little later feeling... thoughtful.
People say the oddest things, or maybe it's not that odd; I've just never seen it that way.
Anyway, have procrastinated enough. Back to the books.
Focus Tiffy!
Currently listening to: Vertical Horizon's Underwater
Current emotion: overwhelmed
Random observation: There's a tight feeling within, a vise-like grip around the soul; caged, bound, locked.Posted by Tiff @ 02:29 PM GMT [Link]
Sunday, October 5, 2024
Chillax
Nothing doing, just relaxin'.
Made lunch for everyone as we vegged out in front of the TV. Decided to walk to TK's with Pei Tsuey and Pei Yun to grab my stuff before heading downtown for coffee, talk and groceries. Came home to a dead household *grins* Everyone's just recovering and regenerating for tonight. Sarah and Punky were supposed to head up to campus for the beer tents but decided against it because of shitty weather.
Punky made chicken and I cooked up some perogies and baked a sauce and cake thing for dinner. The girls didn't get ready till almost 10, and DJ came by to pick them up, the brat. After Di took off to Alex's I decided to draw myself a bath, which was great. Feels so damn chill, heh.Anyway, that pretty much wraps up the day. Off to read Shakespeare's Henry IV before I climb into bed.
Damn, before I forget, here's a question: is the column layout messed? It looks it on my side, but I can't for the life of me understand it, since I didn't touch the coding at all. Please let me know yah?
Currently listening to: Coldplay's Clocks
Current emotion: sleepy
Random observation: Nothing like some Coldplay to wind up the day.Posted by Tiff @ 12:32 AM GMT [Link]
Saturday, October 4, 2024
Haha, no hangover!
Up and about 11-ish, and no hangover to boot, YAY ME!
Was a fool and a half, but no regrets, heh.
Lesson learned: don't put me in a room with guys who say girls can't drink, 'cause I'll do my damnadest to prove 'em wrong, and if I go down, I'm taking you down with me!
To recap, Sarah started the ball rolling at around 3 in the afternoon. I didn't start with her, so I was about three drinks behind and had to play some serious catchup, what with me putting it off till about 7-ish. Pei Tsuey, Yimin, Mao and Tom showed up around 9, and I was up to 7 by then. When we got to TK's, I pretty much lost count. There was a moment when TK, Tom and I were standing in the kitchen holding shot glasses and a bottle of Absolut, and someone yelled, "I can't believe you guys!". I think we were drinking *grins*
Highlights of the night included watching TK and Simon down a shot of Absynthe each, with sugar and fire and everything. We played some russian poker, chilled. There was a cake in the shape of boobs (present from Niko) for the boys, and I distinctly remember Niko vacuuming when he was drunk, which reminds me so much of my cousin, hiaks.
Oh yeah, and since now I know for sure my uncle reads this: Uncle, how can you and the rest go for makan without me?!! *gives you the evil eye* Yeah, I know about your six-night six-restaurants thing! HMPH.
Anyways, am off to collect my bag and stuff. But before I forget...
Roger (Puck drops Wednesday) says:
u're a drunkard!!!
Roger (Puck drops Wednesday) says:
and that stupid bear is wearing MY sunglasses!!
five on the dot says:
AHAHAHAHAHAHA
Currently listening to: Boxcar Racer's There Is
Current emotion: .
Random observation: round two coming up?Posted by Tiff @ 03:40 PM GMT [Link]
Saturday, October 4, 2024
Going back
Two thing I have to go back for:
1. Vodka bottle.
2. Bag.Had way too much. don't care though, 'cause had a good time. I need my bag and my student ID. Hehe. Ways to tell you had to much? When you fucking forget yor ID :P
So goddamn tired, I'll regret this tomorrow.
t.
Posted by Tiff @ 03:22 AM GMT [Link]
Saturday, October 4, 2024
Semi-sober
So yah, had so much to drink. How come I can still drink? Too much oi. Tired, drunk. Haha, poor Tom. Losah! You lost to a girl. Hiaks. Suckaaaa!
So tired. Need sleep. Puked. I think I puked. Oi.
Posted by Tiff @ 02:16 AM GMT [Link]
Saturday, October 4, 2024
Drunk
Dear everyone,
am nice and gone. Like, really gone. Damn happy though. Soooooo damn gone. How are you? Drunk, ahhhahhaha! Still laughing at Tom. Haha, damn Tom. And you thought you could drink me under. Loserrrrrrrr!
CCurrently under: Jay Z's Frontin'
Current emotion: drunk
Random observation: drunken messPosted by Tiff @ 01:57 AM GMT [Link]
Friday, October 3, 2024
University students *shakes head*
"It's a good thing we love her, or we wouldn't be out here!"
"A'ight, after 7 you can't have anything unless it's got alcohol in it"
"You have 7 minutes to grab something to eat, otherwise you'll be drunk as a skunk later"
"I'll grab something in 5"
"That means you'll have 2!""I SEE NAKEDDDDDD!!!!"
"I GOT THE JOB!!!!"
"...just got paid and I got a little money to burnn.n.n..n..."
"Tiffy, you're slowing down! come drink!"
...and so begins our weekend.
Currently listening to: Clipse's Grindin' (Remix)
Current emotion: .
Random observation: This house is loud...Posted by Tiff @ 08:19 PM GMT [Link]
Thursday, October 2, 2024
Drink and dream
Am sitting in the room with a drink in my hand, contemplating the ways of mind, of people, of ethics.
A shot of vodka and a shot of blue curacao, topped off with orange juice. Layered, it looks gorgeous. Shaken, and you get a deep sea-green complete with foam caps. I can get addicted to this :P And yes, if you think this is the work of an alcoholic, you're damn right it is.
So bloody messed.
Punky's watching E.R, Di's out, Api's back in the t.dot and Sarah's at the Sapphire Lounge I think. Oh wait, she's back. Nevermind.
I don't know how you do it *shakes head* Some days I'm amazed, others I'm just appalled.
so fucking unreliable.
Been sitting here for forever trying to think of something to say or write, but everything seems so damn confusing, disturbing. Am still trying to come to grips with reality, but everything's layered with bitterness. Anger. Despair.
Silhouettes
and dancing shadows;
Vivid colours,
painful endeavours.
Clear liquid layered with blue
Consumed in looking for true
thoughts
beliefs
faith;
Just can't seem to
find it
attain it,
so I keep dreaming.
Maybe someday.
Currently listening to: Crystal Method's Trip Like I Do
Current emotion: tired
Random observation: Needle and threads.Posted by Tiff @ 11:42 PM GMT [Link]
Thursday, October 2, 2024
Bah humbug.
Am so pissed I cannot sleep, hiaks. Or maybe it's just the sugar talking. Cookies and chocolates, meh. Have a shitload of stuff to do tomorrow, and not much time to do it in.
It's TK's birthday come Friday, and Head of the Trent is almost upon us, which can only mean booze booze and even more booze. I daren't think what it's going to be like, but so far Sarah has plans to stay buzzed from Friday right through to Sunday. Being less ambitious, I'll see how things go.
At times like these I wish uncle was here to drink with me, hiaks. We have good philosophical talks when we drink, methinks.
I don't know if I'm relieved or depressed that I've yet to see any mindfuck books for this year. With the exception of a couple of poems by Yeats (whom my prof refers to as 'Willy' by the way) and Nietzche's The Anti-Christ, have yet to see anything that may potentially screw the mind up. I remember when science fiction and theatre would screw me over for weeks with their stupid existentialist/ realist expression of impressions. It drove me nuts, but damn it all if it wasn't a ride. All that talk about sex and religion and the church and sex andand... yeah, that pretty much summed it up.
It's fun being a cultstudies major ;D
Maybe I'll try sleeping again.
Currently listening to: Vertical Horizon's Goodbye Again
Current emotion: semi-pissed
Random observation: working on "...walking towards sunshine".Posted by Tiff @ 02:47 AM GMT [Link]
Thursday, October 2, 2024
Godamnit!
So I had this nice long post all typed out when GreyMatter and IE decided to conspire against me and made the whole damn thing disappear, ugh!
In brief, I whined about how I changed the colour scheme because someone said it looked like porn, talked about classes (something about walking in early thinking I was late) and how Bob the Bachelor was a whore and how we studied and shit.
Bah.
Maybe tomorrow.
Currently listening to: Linkin Park's Faint
Current emotion: pissed
Random observation: damnit damnit damnit.Posted by Tiff @ 02:26 AM GMT [Link]
Wednesday, October 1, 2024
Release
Inspiration towards salvation.
...that I may climb the hill
and find solitude
and peace,
a sweet release
from all that
binds me
cages me
breaks me-
that I may heal
and slowly feel
again.
Posted by Tiff @ 12:37 AM GMT [Link]
Wednesday, October 1, 2024
Waiting
I *actually* made it for my creative writing class this morning, phew. Caught up a little with Scottie the bus driver on my way to class; poor guy was bitching about bloody unfriendly first years who can't even find a moment to say hello and thank you. I doubt you guys remember, but Scottie was the one who stopped the bus in the middle of the road to pick me up when I was walking home one rainy day last year. He's nice :)
Di cut her hand when she broke a glass while doing dishes earlier; Punky went with her to the hospital and they're still not back yet. It was a pretty bad gash, so it's stitches for sure :/
Am waiting for sooks to come save me; i want to make changes to the template but lack the guts to do so for fear of throwing everything out of whack as I'm apt to do.
Just keep waiting... la la la lil la.
Currently listening to: 112's Anything
Current emotion: meh
Random observation: Silly blog.