Friday, November 28, 2023

The good, the bad, the ugly

Some days, I don't even know where to start.

Long post ahead.

The first day of Raya was a tiring one, seeing as the family (minus Colin, who was working) took off bright and early for a day trip to A Famosa in Melacca with four cousins, three aunts, two maids and three kids in tow. The animal performances were great, although I couldn't help but feel sorry for the performing monkeys and elephants and birds et al :/ The Wild, Wild West Show was funny as hell, just because of these jokers who were trying so hard to sound Texan and failing miserably at it. Mei Mei and I laughed our heads off trying to understand the indecipherable accent layered with a thick Malaysian twang in grammatically-challenged English. It was a wonderful trip overall, only marred by a thunderstorm and lack of food :P Everyone was starving by the time we pulled into Melacca Town around 8-ish in the evening, seeing as we really didn't eat all day. The kids had a blast though, what with the camel and elephant rides as well as photos taken with birds and "cowboys" and tigers.

Met up with sooks and Nik the next afternoon and headed to Rudy's in the true spirit of muhibbah (also known as stuffing your face with local delicacies and assorted foods during any and every festival celebrated). Met up with Wan Yee and Henry as well, who were so kind as to show us the way to Rudy's place ('cause Wan Yee didn't trust me with verbal directions, bah). They spent a good hour entertaining themselves at my expense, from my striped socks to multiple penguin jokes which earned them a couple of smacks, some kicks, a handful of dirty looks and lotsa threats in between. Hmph. I will have my revenge, you can count in it!

Had to attend another fancy chinese dinner that night, hence my lack of stuffing myself with yummy rendang and ketupat and stuff :/ (although Rudy did insist on feeding sooks and I some blueberry cheesecake, mm...) At moments like these I say a little prayer of thanks for that night at Red Lobster's when Kayla introduced the joys of cheesecake to me ;) Thanks Kayla!

Anyway, mom had to call and harass me to get my ass back to the shop in time to leave for dowtown KL. Dinner was really good, as to be expected. Damnits, all there really is to do around here is stuff yer face, as sooks will no doubt agree with me.

Did I fail to mention that it's been great being in the same country at the same time as sooks for a period longer than two weeks? ;) Somewhere in between the last few days we actually hit Times Square and Nik purchased the Canon Ixus I which looks absolutely wicked. Am still contemplating shoving him out of a moving vehicle or something to steal it. Or not. Hehe.

Onto the ugly. Was supposed to meet sooks and Nik for dinner at Old Town last night, but I ended up in a car accident instead :/ Was a little shaken up, so I had to skip the meet and drove the car to dad's to inspect the damage. It wasn't as bad as I initally thought, but it's still going to cost a pretty penny to fix it up. Heck, that's pretty much what happens when you're squashed between two lorries (or trucks, for you North Americans) and a van, where no one wants to give way, and you, trying to be ever-diplomatic and accomadating, try to squash into a little corner, forgetting that your vehicular mass does not shrink or expand at will. Sigh. The story of my life. So yes, laugh, for I suck at driving. And at people skills. And a whole bunch of other things which I will not get into at the moment :P

Spent today picking up stock for the store, visiting godmother #3 and hunting down the Education Department to sort some stuff for my niece, all in two-and-a-half inch heels. It doesn't sound like a big deal, but for someone who lives in sneakers (yes, even when MC-ing an event in front of 400+ people dressed in formal wear or while wearing traditional garb to visit people *ahem*) it's challenging. Really.

Among other things, kids are having sex way before they should, and people should think long and hard before producing offspring. Don't do it for the sake of a name or genes or posterity. Do it because you're willing to sacrifice all and everything for another human being, do it because you have a lot of love, trust and stability to give, and even then, for god's sake adopt before burdening this earth with more destruction and pain. A child is not a whim you can just put aside when you get tired of him or her, a child is not an ego booster, a child is not a fucking toy, and for all that's holy, a child is NOT a bargaining tool or pawn you use to guilt-trip or hurt your partner with.

Fuckers.

Currently listening to: Simple Plan's Perfect
Current emotion: agitated
Random observation: Hell's gonna be one crowded place...

Posted by Tiff @ 01:33 PM GMT [Link]

Tuesday, November 25, 2023

Happy Hari Raya!

So I'm two hours late and am practically asleep, but nevertheless, I had to wish all my Muslim friends a wonderful Hari Raya, complete with salam Aidilfitri and maaf zahir batin. And yes, that was probably one of the worst sentences I've ever put together grammar-wise, but since I'm Malaysian, "my England really so dem powderful" I can break any and all grammatical rules.

Please ignore all errors. And translations are available upon request. Really.

Selamat Hari Raya! *sleepy grin*

Posted by Tiff @ 01:06 PM GMT [Link]

Sunday, November 23, 2023

Some kind of wonderful

There's nothing quite like watching a wizened old man handle his first granddaughter tenderly with calloused hands marked by years of hard labour, holding her close even as he jokes about being an unpaid nanny.

Amidst the smell of baby powder, puke and drool, hopes and dreams are weaved into a sunshiny rainbow of amazing possibilities, and life at this moment (for them at least) truly is some kind of wonderful.

Posted by Tiff @ 12:04 PM GMT [Link]

Friday, November 21, 2023

Innane importance

Ever get the feeling that you don't necessarily hate the world, but wouldn't mind if it stopped spinning so you could just step off? Even if it were just for that one minute, one moment in time, for all that people deem important could shut up and shove off, for a moment of sheer clarity in peace and solitude, in myself and I and me...

So, innane stuff first: Joshi got her haircut, and now resembles a daschund instead of the pretty cocker spaniel that she really is *smacks forehead* It's a long story, but suffice to say, when I went to the pet shop to pick my puppy up, I didn't recognize her. At all! Walked past her *twice* before Nick so kindly pointed out my puppy to me...I could've cried, I swear. And once we got into the car, she was all pissed at me, and no matter how many times I called her, she chose to ignore me and stared out the window instead. Bitch :P Halfway home she decided to forgive me after all and jumped onto my lap while I was driving, causing me to swerve and almost meet my Maker had the Federal Highway been a little busier.

She's just great. Really.

Priced my camera, but things didn't work out the way I hoped it would, so I'm still shopping around. Kai came over to show off his latest toy, and we headed to Midvalley and met up with Shean for a bit. I bought myself Vertical Horizon's latest CD, my first original in a loooooong long time, and to celebrate, I went out for drinks with uncle that night.

Ah, who am I kidding? We just wanted to drink :P

Marianne called in a dither over a lit essay all the way from Canada, and after an hour on the 'phone she was still lost, so she went off to sleep for a bit before having another go at it a little past 1 in the morning, KL time. I confess, I was half asleep as I went through her thesis and points one by one, seeing as it was the same thing I'd told her five hours before, and I was damn sleepy by then. Sorry girl :/ I told you I left Canada for a reason.

Also met up with Merv, Wan Yee and Andrew a couple of days back, just a quick drink in Starbucks Bangsar before I took off to fulfill family obligations.

"I'd rather burn out than fade away" - Kurt Cobain

Some people call him a coward, others a selfish bastard. I say he's just human, and he can do as he pleases, because it's his fucking life, and if you think he's selfish, then you're a hypocrite, because *you're* being selfish for making him stay when he doesn't want to.

Take a breath to ease the pain.

I'm tired of you telling me I ought to change, that I ought to lighten up, ought to be different. Did it even cross your mind that if I were any different, if I were a little more self-indulgent, if I took your advice and "changed" the way you suggested, I wouldn't put up with half the shit you and others put me through, I wouldn't give a chipmunk's tail whether you were okay, you were happy, you were alive? I wouldn't care what you said, thought or felt. My word would be expendable, my friendship worth nothing. Hell, even if you could accept that, I couldn't.

I don't ask for the world. All I ask is that you don't take more than you're willing to give.

Fuckheads and fuckwits, bah.

It's been two hours, and I'm still here.

Sleep beckons.

Currently listening to: Vertical Horizon's Won't Go Away
Current emotion: annoyed
Random observation: It's so funny when you think you understand... [more]

Posted by Tiff @ 12:47 PM GMT [Link]

Tuesday, November 18, 2023

Success!

I *finally* managed to log in, woohoo!!

It's 10.09am and I'm awake, waiting for Audrey to drag her ass out of bed so that I can get myself a new drivers' licence.

Today I find out if I'll be able to purchase my camera of choice at a decent price, rah! Was sold on the idea of asking the parental unit to buy it for me, ala typical Asian spoilt brat school of thought, but it was barely two hours before guilt started gnawing at me and I ditched the idea entirely. Damnit, if I want something and not need it, I'll bloody pay for it myself.

As for now, I have to get myself a licence to terrorize the roads of Klang Valley again. Following up is yesterday's rant. Oh yeah, and updates from now on will be sparodic at best, unless I get something sorted. Toodles!

Tuesday, Nov. 18th '03
11.51am

It's taking forever for my e-mail to load, so I might as well bitch about it while waiting.

Am home safe and sound, albeit tired as hell. No jet-lag, just plain exhaustion from the 40+ hours of travelling. Dad was not surprised (damnits); I believe his exact words were, "If my daughter says she'll be back for my birthday, she'll be back for my birthday. That's her problem, she says it and she has to do it..."

Thanks dad. I feel the love :P

On the lighter side of things, I have genetic confirmation of where I inherited my violent streak from.

*tiff's mom says something about niece*
tiff's dad: then we'll stone her!
tiff: ahahaha!
tiff's dad: yeah, throw rocks! lots of it!

AHAHAHHAAHHA!!

Didn't I tell you my dad was the best? ;D

Great, it's been 20 minutes, and my e-mail *still* hasn't loaded yet. Bloody freakin' hell. I hate you dial-up! *evil glare*

You know you've moved onto a different era when your nephew doesn't know how to do his homework and faxes the questions to you. Ah, the use (and abuse) of technology.

We had a family gathering of sorts last night to celebrate dad's birthday, with really good fancy chinese food which I normally wouldn't eat because it's too damn fancy for my mediocre tastebuds, heh. Dessert was amazing though, 'cause Colin managed to purchase a special chocolate cake made by his hotel for VVIPs and costs too damn much. I'm not kidding you; the damn thing melts in your mouth, literally!

The weather's not as bad as I thought, thanks to daily thunderstorms. I still can't terrorize the roads as of yet, seeing as I have to make a police report regarding my missing ID and driver's licence, BAH.

Shean and Kai welcomed me home with 14 missed calls on my cell before we took off for a late lunch yesterday. Bumped into Shao's ex who joined us for a quick cup of coffee and offered some tips regarding the local municipal laws (aka how to get rid of a parking ticket, haha!). Contacts are great I tell ya.

Okay, it's been 45 minutes, and my e-mail *still* hasn't loaded. Damnits, screw this. I can't even log onto my site to post this. Guess I'll do it later.

Currently listening to: TV blaring.
Current emotion?: meh
Random observation: Stupid internet *mumblegrumble*

Posted by Tiff @ 09:21 PM GMT [Link]

Saturday, November 15, 2023

Location: Hong Kong

Alright, I made it through the first 28 hours or so. Only 13 more and I'll be on Malaysian soil again, woohoo!

Oh, did I forget to mention? Am on my way home :P

Actually, I probably have a bunch of people in Canada hating me right now, since I just upped and left without much of a peep. In my defence, I had every intention of extending my stay but Air Canada screwed me over, hence my emergency packing and leaving within 12 hours' notice.

I miss my girls :/

Hong Kong International Airport is a bitch. I have 15 hours to kill, and this place helps 'cause it's massive! My feet hurt like hell, and even now I'm standing as I type, because Samsung can afford 20-something-inch flatscreen monitors and provide free internet acess to the masses, but not chairs. Go figure... (Okay, so I know it's to discourage idiots like yours truly from hogging the 'puters, but gimme a break!).

Not as jet-lagged as I thought, yay me.

What day is it?

So yeah, nothing much to buy here, since everything's so bloody expensive. Was looking at some digital cameras, but I have a feeling it's still much cheaper back home. Picked up a kitschy shot glass while in Vancouver to add to my collection; must remember to grab one here when the shops open again. The stewardess thought I was from Hong Kong, some weird fella thought I was Korean and a sales chick mistook me for a Taiwanese. Child of the world, hiaks. I.AM.MALAYSIAN, tenchiew. Ah well, at least no one thought I was 15.

My Sony discman is a lifesaver. It's been playing continuously since I left Peterborough at 3.30am Friday, and it's still running on the same set of batteries, hah!

Managed to sleep a bit on the 'plane; it certainly helps that my sleep time is screwed anyway. Slept through The Hulk, watched Feel 100% 2003 (just by reading subtitles), caught the last five minutes of that pirate movie with Johnny Depp in it, and I think there was one more, but my brain's so fried I have absolutely no idea. Meh. Oh wait, now I remember. Bruce Almighty! Yeah, so, uhm...yeh.

So.damn.tired.

uncle, if you're reading this: I have a present for youuuuuuuuu! ;D

Currently listening to: Switchfoot's Dare You To Move
Current emotion: empty
Random observation: all I can think of now is the pain.

Posted by Tiff @ 11:31 AM GMT [Link]

Thursday, November 13, 2023

The company we keep

Been slightly off the hook the last few days, but everything came together when we met up for dinner today.

I cooked enough to feed 11 people, and they pretty much wiped everything out ;D

It was meant to be a house thing at first, but soon grew to party of sorts, with Roger, Long, Kayla, Althea, Steve and Deandra making appearances. We ate, chilled, fought and laughed over curry, veggies and black pepper pork served over rice before rounding it off with an apple crisp and chocolate cake.

Took lots of pictures :D

Halfway through a verbal disagreement, Long and Steve picked me up and started swinging, and Althea helped them! I wasn't the only one to suffer though; Deandra and Sarah each got a taste of it too ;P

Roger and I beat each other a lot throughout; it's going to be weird coming back next year and not being able to steal his stuff anymore :/ Then there's Althea, Steve, Long... I don't even want to go into this just yet.

Found a scribbled piece of paper while packing; it's from the beginning of the school year, when Sarah and Punky were trashed (one of the few odd nights I didn't drink with them), filled with drunken quotes. It was just stuff Sarah was typing to Roger on MSN, and she was yelling aloud what she was typing at the time:

"Where is you?!"
"You is bitch"
"Me so funk...."
"We own you!"
"This is Sarah your swearing machine..."

hahaha. Lord, the shit we get ourselves into.

It's only for a couple of months, but I'm going the miss these crazy people so damn much.

Currently listening to: REM's Losing My Religion
Current emotion: nostalgic
Random observation: thank god for immortalization through pictures.

Posted by Tiff @ 04:16 AM GMT [Link]

Monday, November 10, 2023

Rap stars

7am and I'm rapping and rhyming with sooks, ahahaha!

Vodka speak
of vodka reek
in rhymes and rap
over a continent's gap
we speak and chill
we do what we will.

dot - won't back down says:
hate too much and hate too well
dot - won't back down says:
upon bitter moments do we dwell.
dot - won't back down says:
bah
dot - won't back down says:
fucking rhymes.
DND says:
u did it on purpose dammit
DND says:
if u cant figure out can it
DND says:
fucking rhymes
DND says:
wasting time
dot - won't back down says:
on fucking rhymes

dot - won't back down says:
it's a fact that we swear, but that who we be!
dot - won't back down says:
that girl in nz be rhyming with me
DND says:
(oh dammit writers block, i meant to say something about a tree)
DND says:
me? ME! dammit why didnt i tihnk of ME
DND says:
$#$%@#%$#%
dot - won't back down says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
dot - won't back down says:
i lost her for a moment but i think she'll be back
dot - won't back down says:
(ahahahahhahahaa)
DND says:
otherwise i'd give her the sack

DND says:
tiff needs some smack
DND says:
/me gives her a joint
dot - won't back down says:
to get back on track!
DND says:
u see the point

We're so ghetto that way ;D

Currently listening to: Tom Petty & Pearl Jam's Won't Back Down
Current emotion: .
Random observation: ...like smokin' a sack of crack.

Posted by Tiff @ 07:19 AM GMT [Link]



Monday, November 10, 2023

Foolish

Fuck, I hate this.

I hate knowing but not doing, stressed yet still procrastinating. Feeling overwhelmed from nothing and everything, just thinking, reevaluating and laughing it off but still worrying.

ARGH.

She's right, I just need to start somewhere. But I don't want to. I'm so damn scared, and I just can't. Or maybe I just won't.

Don't know anymore.

:/

*sigh*

Posted by Tiff @ 02:15 AM GMT [Link]

Sunday, November 9, 2023

Pigeonholed

Summed in a few words.

Roger says:
you weird, short, drunk, potty mouthed, violent malaysian!

ahahahaha!

He never fails to crack me up, even when he's trying to be abusive ;P

I don't know where the day went. First thing I saw when I opened my eyes was Punky rushing for the door, saying she'll be home tomorrow. Sarah and Bryan were out and didn't come home 'til mid-afternoon, and by then I was pretty much glued to my chair and desk, staring at the screen and trying to make sense of things.

I was told not to eat anything 'cause Bryan had a surprise for us, and it turned out he was taking Sarah and I out for dinner at a Chinese-Canadian buffet, lol. So damn nice of him ;D In return I got Sarah to buy him a six-pack of beer, since I still have no ID on me.

Got some things in order; if all works out, I should be ready to go.

Don't want to decide anymore.

Currently listening to: Maroon 5's Harder to Breathe
Current emotion: weak
Random observation: Splitting headache's been around for days.

Posted by Tiff @ 02:52 AM GMT [Link]

Saturday, November 8, 2023

Snow..!

First snowfall of the year that stayed on the ground, hmph. And it didn't come down in pretty little flakes either, oh hell no! It's Peterborough, so it had to fall in chunks. That's right, great big chunks of snow *evil look*

Weather aside, Di cooked us an amazing brunch this afternoon with eggs sunny side up, french toast and maple syrup, ham and home fries, mmm. So damn good, hiaks.

We bummed for awhile before heading downtown to drop Di off at the Greyhound. It's freezing cold but we walked home, warming up to a mug of coffee and a slice of cake when we got back.

Went to Pei Tsuey's later in the evening and met up with Pei Yun, Jon, TK and Penar as well. Smashing dinner with excellent company; can't ask for more (especially when you're a poor student, hehe). Watched a bit of The Matrix and just yakked for ages.

Was watching Conan O'Brien with Punky; Bryan's here, and he and Sarah were out catching Texas Chainsaw Massacre. Now *that's* a movie you won't see me watching, EVER ;P

I like this quote:
"Love many, trust few and always paddle your own canoe" - Unknown

Don't have a canoe though ;D

Looking forward to going home.

Currently listening to: Jennifer Knapp's A Little More
Current emotion: stuffed!
Random observation: so much I'll miss.

Posted by Tiff @ 02:29 AM GMT [Link]

Friday, November 7, 2023

In(spirit)ation

Shadows dance
in candlelight wisps,
fluttering along window panes
(spirit's pains),
speaking in whispers
like a gentle breeze,
wishing for light
through darkness
(bright!);
for pain to cease;
in search of release.

With slight notion
but no emotion
or feeling-
lack of senses
sent reeling,
Questions defined
and soul refined;
bitter, cynical
(just slightly critical)
I am me--
no revelation,
but hell and damnation,
my in(spirit)ation.

Posted by Tiff @ 02:47 AM GMT [Link]

Thursday, November 6, 2023

I'll be

...still five feet nothing come tomorrow ;P

Hiaks. Am listening to Edwin McCain in acoustic. Actually, just listening to a bunch of stuff in acoustic. If I had to measure a person or group for talent, it would be by listening to them do something in acoustic live and/or accapella. This of course completely excludes hip hop (unless they were beatboxing) ;P Jason Mraz ain't that bad, Live rocks, yada yada blabla.

...still questioning till the day I die.

So many things to wonder about, so little time to care. Why, how, when, who, which and where. Cookies and cream like crumbled dreams... da da da.

...baking tomorrow.

Pei Tsuey's having a dinner thing. Have to bring something (can't show up empty-handed mah...).

...humming to Jazon Mraz for the next couple of hours.

Catchy!

...searching for something that I lost so long ago.

Revelation today. "With eyes wide open, I walk into something undefinable". Can't type without errors, can't laugh without crying.

Solitary figure
alone in the dark
nothing but words
a sign and remark.
Burning light
and person lost
Kindred spirit
at what cost?

Nothing and everything, at the same time.

Currently listening to: Jason Mraz's Sleeping To Dream
Current emotion: thoughtful
Random observation: Need to clean up my desk.

Posted by Tiff @ 10:25 PM GMT [Link]

Wednesday, November 5, 2023

Eavesdropping

The things we say and the things we do.

"If I look half as stupid as that, it's no wonder people laugh at me all the time!"

"...god listens to soca, and jesus likes to party!"

"We set ourselves up for shit to happen, and yet we're still pissed when it does.."

"Books are the devil!"

"I want my medal damnit!"
"Here, I'll make your room smell pretty..." *sprays Lysol*
"..."

"...so tell me again WHY you cut your jeans...?"

"...yeah, we live in the halfway house with no counsellors ('cause they all ran away), and it's the Peterborough Penitentiary too...once you get in you never get out..."

"I'd rather talk to a wall; at least it's free!"

"Get in the shower, stinky!"

...and our all-time favourite:

"I see NAKEDDDDDD!"

We think we're funny, but really we're not. Nobody else thinks we're funny. We're just funny to us, hiaks.

Currently listening to: Radiohead's Pyramid Song
Current emotion: blah
Random observation: need sleep so bad.

Posted by Tiff @ 04:36 AM GMT [Link]

Tuesday, November 4, 2023

Relief

She's awake, and I can breathe again.

Was conscious till past 8am, and Punky's first words to me when she got up at 7.30 for work was, "Are you fucking kidding me?!"

I wish I was ;P

Promised Sarah I'd hike to Chemong with her for lunch, but for obvious reasons I couldn't make it. We ended up ordering delivery when I finally left the bed just before 4.

Need to go hop in the shower. Feeling gross ;P

Currently listening to: Matchbox Twenty's Bright Lights
Current emotion: .
Random observation: thanks for the 'peanut' gt ;D

Posted by Tiff @ 06:26 PM GMT [Link]



Tuesday, November 4, 2023

Bittersweet

Won my bet, but for a moment back there, she had me so worried I got on the 'phone and was dialing frantically before she answered my message. Called her anyway to make sure she was drinking enough fluids before she went to bed.

Friendship is a double-edged sword, heh.

It's 7 and I have to crash.

I dance and celebrate my frapp later today ;P

*hugs sooks* You're crazy, but I still love you.

Posted by Tiff @ 07:07 AM GMT [Link]



Tuesday, November 4, 2023

Digicam love

...and after talking to snap-happy camera people and realizing how much it's going to cost to develop the several rolls of film I have lying around, am seriously considering picking up a digital camera sometime soon.

So far, am taking into consideration the Casio Exilim EX-Z3 and the Nikon Coolpix 3100, but am always open to newer techy shit, hiaks.

Such a loser that way...

Much thanks to sooks, Barrie and Nik for allowing me to waste their time getting them to explain in detail stuff that just usually goes over my head.

The kiasu Asian in me is screaming for the latest and best, but thank goodness the voice of Sanity smacked that bitch enough for me to be sensible and practical about the whole thing :P

Among other news, laughed so hard while talking to Sarah and Punky that I fell off my chair again. Such a simple mind, so easily amused...

Sarah: Maybe it's a population thing...I'll give it four thousand...four thousand and two!?
Me: AHAHAHAHAHA... *thump!* AHAHAHAHAHAHAA!!

Sarah: here, look at this. What do you see? *picture of rain clouds and Christmas bow/ ribbon*
Me: Rainbow?
Sarah: ahh... I was thinking waterflower...
Me: AHAHAHAHAHA!!

I swear, it's the caffeine.

Currently listening to: Gary Barlow's Open Road
Current emotion: .
Random observation: techywanttechywanttechywaaaant.

Posted by Tiff @ 02:25 AM GMT [Link]

Monday, November 3, 2023

Of bets and booze

...so sooks has a theory, and she's going ahead with her madcap idea to finish a litre (or as much of it as she can) of vodka with some technique her Russian friend taught her, even after I tried my damnedest to dissuade her.

I could kill him, but she's a big girl and knows what she's doing.

I can't beat her, so I might as well make a bet on her ability, lol.

dot - trust only in the cookie says:
pick a number, any number
n1k<3st3ph says:
XX!
dot - trust only in the cookie says:
haha
dot - trust only in the cookie says:
so it's settled
dot - trust only in the cookie says:
XX shots and i bake you a batch of cookies
dot - trust only in the cookie says:
any other number and you buy me a mocha frapp
dot - trust only in the cookie says:
deal?
n1k<3st3ph says:
okay

*sigh*

It's 5.38am and I'm still up.

Currently listening to: Blue Man Group feat. Gavin Rossdale's The Current
Current emotion: .
Random observation: madness.

Posted by Tiff @ 05:40 AM GMT [Link]

Sunday, November 2, 2023

Oxymoronic irony

Argumentative narcissist
anal-retentive pessimist
Contemplative and quirky,
Psychosomatic crazy!
Stubborn as hell,
noise you can't quell,
dreamer and quiet,
sometimes a riot;
Loved and hated,
highly overrated,
harsh yet kind,
not heart but mind.
Control freak and jerk,
child of many quirks,
mental case, drama queen,
none and all
that you've known, read and seen.

Posted by Tiff @ 03:15 AM GMT [Link]

Saturday, November 1, 2023

3 hours later

Went to bed close to five, and it's barely 7.30 and I'm up already, bah.

Drank, yakked, chilled.

Vodka shots, wine as chasers. You know you're an alcoholic when..!

Yeah, was too broke to buy mixers, but it's a new month, so the binge goes on. At this rate, you're probably right; first liver transplant by the time I'm thirty, and three by the time we turn fifty. Or something.

Nowhere near as crazy as my last two binges, which was nice.

Peer-pressured to attend Alex's thing; we were there for all of two hours? Api came too, yay! Was too lazy to change, so I went in my ripped jeans, tee, boots and hat as a pimp with the girls (who just wanted to wear clubbing clothes) as my 'hoes, haha. Api and I spotted some guy rockin' the fur coat, top hat and cane, and I had to tell her he was the glamour pimp while I was the cheap-ass street one ;P Chilled with Bubba (in his pirate hat, hiaks), Oliver, Iman and the rest of 'em. Rum and cokes, not my thing *makes a face* Whisky shot, meh. Was that even whisky?

Sarah called their rum and cokes "weak-assed shit", gave me hers and took my empty glass (previously filled with aforementioned 'crap') and poured her own potent mix into it, lol. Yeah, my girls brought extra-strength pre-mixed drinks to the house with them ;) It's a house party after all.

They took off to a club soon after, but Api and I opted out and relaxed on our front porch instead, enjoying the gorgeous weather and watching drunk university students stumble home. Some come up to chill on our lawn with us, and one of them showed us a swaddled bundle of stuff and told us she was dressed as Mary, lol.

The girls came home around 3 with Fularin in tow, and what with all the comfy couches and seats we have, everyone sat on the stairs *shakes head* They crashed soon after, and I put Sarah to bed.

Anyways, should try and get a little more sleep into my system.

Currently listening to: Live's Run to the Water
Current emotion: indifferent
Random observation: yay pictures.

Posted by Tiff @ 08:00 AM GMT [Link]